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  1. kerri_nicole
    Stop texting me stupid stuff, you are the one who cheated who lied who called me disgusting names. You are the one who neglected your children who left us with nothing. I was stupid not to see what was infront of my eyes. I have no time for your silly texts you did not want nor deserve us so stop texting and leave us alone you have hurt us enough.
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    You have the cheek to tell em you want to go to a solicitor over the kids when I am the one who oushed you to see your kids even after you cheated, lied and left us, me heavily preganant with a child to look after and no money. Now you want to go to a solicitor when you did not show up on Sunday to pick them up, oh I forgot drink was more important. So go ahead I jsut give up anything that will amke life easier and peaceful go ahead and do. Maybe now it really will be over. Go ahead sleep with who you want I was way too good for you.
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    You think you can jsut get yur sister to get my kdis and you can keep them for the weekend???? you have not bothered with them or to sit and sort out days. Christopher is only 7 months old he does not know you and I dont trust you with him no way are you taking my baby for the weekend so you can keep the abuse to yourself. Any normal loving father would sort something out to see his kids regularly.
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    wellhopefully my kids will know that too but they are a bityoung to decide for themselves and I am just worried that they will think I stopped them from seeing their dad. I don't at all he just does not bother.
  5. kerri_nicole
    How to you deal with visitation with the kids and still keep NC or LC I find it so hard??
  6. kerri_nicole
    How could someone turn so cruel and cold and treat their family like dirt. Although if I am truthful you were always like that I just ignored it and took the abuse and lost my dignity and self respect. I used to be so happy and out going and you reduced me to this. But I will get it all back and leave you behind. The urge to text you has gone because I just could not be bothered.
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    Oh I dont know what to feel anymore, tha fact that there are kids involved and you being a spoilt cruel brat yourself does not help matters. I meant two years this has been carrying on, you have cheated, abused, shamed and humiliated us over and over and hurt us beyond repair. But I still never took your chldren away even though you have not treated them properly either! And now even now I offer you to sort out days tp see your kids so its done with and you wll ahve peace and you still wont do that. What kind of a father does that. Your no good to my kdis but the law says I have to. But you give fathers a bad name. Why would you not sort days and be over with. Do you not think my kids deserve that much. Your sick.
  8. kerri_nicole
    I have the same kind of situation myself. We have kids and I dont want any contact as he is a bully but how do you manage with kids??
  9. kerri_nicole
    You have some cheek to blame not seeing your kids on me. You have been begged for help and to be there for them but you shoce not to. Then you tell me you have no sons and the reason you dont see them is because of me! What a pig I hate you so much now I hate myself for letting you do this again and letting you abuse me and my family when they are the ones supporting your children when you dont. Who do you think you are you cant bully me anymore now no more I mean that. My kids are better off without you.
  10. kerri_nicole
    How in gods name can you not even ask after your kids, your baby I mean who does that. But thats you all over, selfish only thinking of you, I suppose its the weekend and they would cramp your style. I hate wondering what your doing when I should not care after all the things you have done to us, did not even turn up to your baby christening but could go to the pub down the road. Its sick and I am so hurt and angry. I do not want to contact you I just want you gone I really do go do what you have to with who you want to, I wont be crying over you this time because you wont get any better than me and my two beautiful boys, but we can do so much better. Your not even a father your a disgrace.
  11. kerri_nicole
    Thank you. I honestly don't know when it will end. He is a bully and jsut does what he likes when he likes. He was already brought to court for maintenance, he got unlimited access then as we only had the one child and he wasnted to see his dad, but his dad never really bothered with him. I am jsut so lsot dont know what to do. Do I jsut cut off all contact and let him take it to court if he wants to see them!
  12. kerri_nicole
    Day 2 again. very very tough becuase I want to know does he find it hard and why he is not sorry. I want to know why we all want something that is not good for us. Is it just affection I crave instead. How can they find it so easy and we are the ones finding it hard. its literally a struggle not to text but I know the right thing to do is to let go.
  13. kerri_nicole
    I jsut want to know why or how a person could do this to their family. What did we ever do to you. I raised our 8 year old by myself practically, I was there for him while you were out playing around behind my back, while you told me to tell him you were dead. You left us with no heating nothing for christmas and then heavily pregnant with no support or anything. I let you back in time after time to give you a chance with your kids not even for me becuase I could never touch you again. But not even to a new baby could you be there or make sure we were ok for everything or help out with anything. I work and look after 2 kids by myself and do all the extra activites with not a question of help from you and you have the cheek to abuse me to tell me when you will take my kids. Must be great to only take them for 1 day a week only for a few hours and not worry about night feeds or after school activities or anything at all. You will never ever again hurt us or get the chance to let me kids down again or give another broken promise. Never again will you do this or bully me. I gave you everything and I used to be so out going and happy and you stripped me of all of it. But I will get it back and I am doing ok with the kdis on ym own no one to answer to. Your loss.
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    Day (Not sure really) its difficult becuase we have kids and I was told I had to maintain contact for that reason but to be honest its so hard as he is making life so hard and stressful. Its strange how you can go from loving/wanting someone to hating them so much. He has still not set days for the kids and for that reason we have to maintain contact although I would prefer a complete cut off. He was asked today to get baby milk and food etc for your 6 month old son, but he did not he told me to f*** off.. Is it wrong to totally ignore him now and let him sort his own thing for the kids if he wants to at all??? I cant take much more of this at all.
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    Day 2 Mornings are the worst where you have time to think and have dreamt of them not in a good way but you way up feeling pretty awful... Anyway here is to staying strong. I dont have the urge to contact him I am just sad.
  16. kerri_nicole
    At what point do u call it a day where kids are concerned. He is not bothering with them does not know his baby son at all, I am just so sick of my kids being hurt now. As a mother I jsut want to do anything to protect them and I am really wondering if cutting him out is for the best he is just setting our 9 year old up for a big fall again! Is it right to feel this angry???
  17. kerri_nicole
    Day 2 AGAIN Why is it that we crave something that is bad for us or treats us so badly.. Humans are a funny thing..
  18. kerri_nicole
    Day 3. Even though we have kids this still has to be done. He has agreed to take the kids every second weekend but I wont hold my breath! I am alwasy jsut waiting for something to happen! Anyway feel ok..
  19. kerri_nicole
    Day one again but thats it now!! Our baby sons christening yesterday and he never showed, I never felt so upset or let down in my whole life but at least I really see now!
  20. kerri_nicole
    Dat 1 again! Oh why do I do this to myself I feel awful having broken NC afte 5 days and that was to answer his text which was sent to wind me up, telling me to Grow Up.. I could not help myself I jsut wanted to say everything to him how bad a person he was etc, so here I am again feeling crap because I was doing well and I felt in power again now back to square one. But I will do it again
  21. kerri_nicole
    Day 3. God today is long and feeling very weak! Its really hard when there r kids involved.. He is trying to play my kids off me its not fair.
  22. kerri_nicole
    Day 3 Had 2 texts this morning from him saying he missed us and why was I acting like this. Had to fight the urge to tet back but I have been here so many times before! I think he jsut likes to think I am not serious then he can continue in the way he was knowing I am always going to be there. Well not this time I am so determined to stay NC and get my life back. We were together 10 years but anoter 10 would of been alot longer and more abusive.. I do deserve someone that will treat me with respect and love and no lying or cheating. My kids deserve that too. Staying strong..
  23. kerri_nicole
    I am sticking with the NC but I am jsut finding it so hard to sleep, as you say I fall asleep then it just gets to me and my mind works overtime over and over and over. I try all sorts to get to sleep but I just end up thinking of him and the things he could be doing or could be thinking, why have I turned out like this. I was always an outgoing independent person! But I do feel a bit of relief that this can only get better and for once I am in control!!!
  24. kerri_nicole
    Day 2 and I am sick of not being able to sleep! Is anyone else like this??? I wake at about 3.30 in the morning and I toss and turn for hours, its like my mind wont shut down of all the "what if's" I am going crazy!!!
  25. kerri_nicole
    Day 2 for me! Its not easy at all and especially when there r kids & grand parents etc involved. Its very easy to feel weak but then I try to think of the nasty hurtful things he has done to us time & time again and I fight the urge to text him even if it is jsut to call him names etc. I know I am better than that and I am doing the right thing for me and for my kids definitly! I have not said he can not see the kids but I have asked him to go througha solicitor where there are set days and a routine and maintenance, but 2 years down the road he has not done that! He is childish and selfish expects me to being them to him, well no more. If he really wanted to see his kids he would do this and god knows I have given him every opportunity even asfter the cheating lying and abuse I still said what was best for my kids was to see their dad even if he showed no interest. He even has his mother on his side (still lives at home at 33) and she believes every word he says! Its just so messey & bloody difficult it really is. Please let this get easier..
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