the one.

Only just noticed how dam old this thread is! anyway if i can help, anyone, leave a message, I WILL GET BACK TO YOU.

I'm sorry, I do not understand the function of posting, this is my first time. Mr Man, I lost my father at the age of 14, i identified his body in the morgue, he was a great man then become an abusive violent alcoholic, I now live with my mother, I'm aged 28 and feel shame also living with her. I have a lack of god, faith and everything else you can imagine. I studied the path of creativity, film, media and even computer science, I am currently studing a degree in fine art. Creating things helps me some what, but i'm never happy, i feel angry all of the time. towards my mother sometimes, but i understand its only through my own frustration at myself. afterall she is the one that got me to this point, she loves me, but it's time to leave, i'm scared too, but i have to leave for my own sanity, i cant blame my life on my father or mother or my older brother. You know that Rain man. * * * * trying to get help from else where, you know it comes from within. when you find it, help me help myself...N.

To Rain Man.