tabbycat07

ok... i am sick of avoiding this... the real reason that i am having such a hard time is because i was raped over the weekend!!! so many mixed feelings... i cant take it!

that is an amazing poem!! i wish i was that good... you are awesome! you can check out my poems on my blog at link removed they arent the greatest, but you can learn a little about me there...

Current mood: crushed here is some of my recent poems.... Dont ever dont ever tell what i did dont ever reveal what everyone keeps hid dont ever tell of this special nap dont ever tell or this thin band holding me back will snap 01-03-07 death at seven thrust after thrust she loses his trust sigh after sigh she again wishes to die tear after tear she lives everyday in complete fear lie after lie her body lies there paralized thrust after thrust shover after shove sigh after sigh tear after tear lie after lie at seven that little girl had to die to survive 01-09-07 its up to me its up to me how i respond its up to me to repair all the shattered bonds its up to me to love what i see its up to me to decide i can disagree its up to me to make a positive change its up to me to make my life positively rearranged 01-16-07 still... still fighting to live everydau still confused on the right thing to say still depressed and low still holding on when i need to let go 01-22-07 every mom, except mine every mom, except mine is there for her child every mom, except mine is caring and mild every mom, except mine is always there every mom, except mine have EVER cared 02-12-07 scars scars on my arms. scars on my legs. but still there is no scar bigger than the one reoppened on my heart. 02-13-07 inexpressable feelings hurting inside with inexpressable feelings, i dont know how to control this. i want it to end, but every try is a miss. i thought i would be ok, but i'm not. i tought i could survive, but i guess i not; things get worse everyday. 02-13-07 running running with no emotional gain running but sinking in my pain running but no where to go running from what, i dont know 02-18-07 tell me what you think...

not doing good at all! for the past 2 weeks i have been having suicidal thoughts! i dont know why though! i go to therapy tomorrow, but is that soon enough!?!?!? needing some support... dont know wht to do .. i want to cut so badly!!