seeuonrooftops

Hey Everyone, About a year and a half ago I met a girl at my work, I knew from the first minute I saw her not only was I physically attracted to her, oddly she seemed like someone I would love to spend time with.. like a friendship type thing. It sounds odd, and it looks odd as I type it out but that was the feelings I got just from looking at her. If love at first site exists in my opinion it was her. We set up a first date, it would be at her place. The first minute I talked to her I never felt as if I needed to put on the show. All guys here know what I'm talking about. I didn't need to flaunt, or put on a face other than my own. It was like I had known her all my life. (All of this sounds so cliche, but I'm being completely honest with you.) We started dating and quickly fell into love. Both of us knew it. We couldn't get enough of each other and still had not had sex. For the first time in my life it was more than that. I know for some of you that may not be such a big deal but for me it was. I saw the relationship going very far, I felt like I could end up with this girl someday. But for some reason, she cut met off in one quick dash. I was left confused and depressed. She said things like that I wouldn't approve of her having her own space, and being able to go out on the weekend not having to worry about what I thought. I didn't know where she was coming from with that because not only did I not care that she had her own time, but I never gave her any hint of that. So I always have thought that it was just an excuse and there was some underlying reason why she left me. A few months later we started talking on the phone again, and of course she started coming over. We tried doing the friends thing, and both of us knew that that would be impossible. I told her one night after she was just about to leave that I still had feelings for her. She said she did aswell, but she was just at a different point in her life and not looking for a long term relationship. Once again I was heartbroken. The girl of my dreams had left again. Fast forward another few months. We had not talked or seen each other in that entire period. I thought about her everyday. Every night for several months straight I couldn't get her name out of my head. When I was driving near her home I'd get teary eyed. So, one night I was at a little party with a couple of my friends. I get extremely buzzed, and for some reason... I think to myself that I need to text her and ask her how she is doing. I do that, and she responds quickly, and is elated to hear from me. She tells me that she has been thinking about me aswell. We both told each other we miss each other to death. The problem is, when we started texting and having short phone calls just recently, it went from how are you doing/ how have you been to a full fledged love affair. Everytime we start talking again we fall for each other madly. The reason I came here is because I don't want this to end like the times before. I know me and her at worst are meant to have a meaningful relationship. She told me that she is now at a different point in her life and looking for a long term relationship. I tell her okay but we need to take it slow. That didn't work, I even ignored my own request. I just made dinner reservations for the best restaurant in my city, with town car and the whole nine. (I know. so much for taking it slow.) I guess I don't have any exact questions to ask, I just wanted some general advice, or if any of you have had similar stories. I love this girl to death. She means so much to me and always has. I don't want to lose her again. Thank you, -T