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I understand how hard rejection can be. I understand what it feels like to just want to cut everything away and bleed it all out. I understand. It took me a long time to realize and believe that not everybody is going to like me. I tried so hard for people to like me. I hated being rejected, since that's all my family ever did. I would get emotionally attached to people who showed me affection rather quickly, mainly older guys. But now, it's okay if people reject me. I know not everybody is going to like me. Yes it still hurts, but its okay. Sometimes you just have to sit there through the pain, you'll see it does go away. I have hurt myself (burn/cut) for the last 5 years. Depression can be helped. you can get better if you want to. You can stop cutting yourself if you want to. Do you want to stop cutting yourself? If you want help, there are people (counsleors, friends, family) who can get you the help you need. If you don't want to stop or feel the need to, then that's fine too. If you just want to tell the world how you feel, that you hurt so bad on the inside, that you have to show it on the outside, then so be it. I'll listen. I know you may think that this is all a bunch of BS, but that's ok. You can reject my comment. I'm not trying to be negative in any way, I know what it 's like to hurt and I know what it's like to feel better, and I pray that one day you will too. Good Luck and take care.

First of all, I would like to thank you all for your posts back to me. I really appreciate them all. (even your opinions) secondly, I decided that I am going to tell my mom. We go to a family counselor together and I think that that will be the best place to do it. (mainly because she can't kill me with someone else in the room). Thanks again for your replies. I will let you know how it goes. It won't be for another week and a half, but I will do it. Thanks. Take Care!!

I'm 19 (well, I will be in less than two weeks). I have lived on my own for about 7 months now. I graduated Highschool, I have a full time job, I pay my own bills, and I don't rely on my parents for anything. before I moved out, they guy that I am dating was my best friend. We went out to the movies and hung out and all that fun stuff. My parents weren't all that excited about it, because of his age, but they didn't stop me since it was a strictly friend only relationship. They made it quite clear that they would not approve of us having a more serious relationship. A couple of weeks before I moved out of my parents house, our relatioship changed. Of course I didn't tell my parents that. The guy I'm dating is 5 years older than my parents. He's 49. I know his intentions, he's good to me in every way and I care so much about him. We have also talked about moving in together. My mom has been asking about our current relationship and I am reluctant to tell her. I want to tell her, but I'm afraid to lose the relationship I have with her. She thinks he's a pretty decent guy but still doesn't want us to be together. Which I can understand. So how can I tell my mom that I am dating him? Should I tell her? Any advice is appreciated. Thank you so much.