LindsayTD

Thanks ramsickle. I thought I'd get "beat up" by everyone for breaking nc, so I appreciate your understanding

I was on day 44 and doing fine... but I emailed my ex. The last time I spoke/emailed him(Dec.11) I said how I loved him, missed him, and want to get back together. I told him I hope he'd regret leaving me, etc. Well, when I got home today from school I started thinking about how desperate and pathetic I sounded so before checking this site I just sent him a friendly email saying I hope he's doing well and to forget everything I said in my previous email. I said I was happy where I am in life now, and I hope he is too. He hasn't responded yet, but for some reason I feel relieved that my last words to him now are "I hope you're happy cuz I am," and not "I miss you." I do miss him, but not as much as I did a couple weeks ago. I just hope he doesn't email me back and make me sad. So... I guess I'm technically back to day 1.

Wow, Tony. I totally feel for you. I was dating a coworker, we fell in love, and he ended up cheating on me. I was devestated. To make matters worse he would talk about his new girlfriend right in front of me. I eventually quit because he was my boss and I couldn't deal with it anymore. I truly wish you good luck with the NC challenge. Stay strong, Tony. Things will be tough at first, but you'll get through it. And remember... what doesn't kill you will only make you stronger.

Day 35- Todays been especially hard. Not sure why. I just wish he would come to his senses and miss me already. Sometimes I just wanna call him because I hope the sound of my voice will make him miss me or something.

Day 31- Today was okay. I was extremely busy at school, but now I'm at home. I wonder if he ever thinks about me. Thank God he doesn't have a myspace. That would be so tempting. His friends do though and I found out they're all going to Las Vegas in a couple weeks. All I'll be thinking about when I know hes there is if hes hooking up with any girls. I miss him.

I'm on day 30 NC, and almost 3 months since the breakup. For some reason its been especially hard these past several days. I miss him. I try to keep myself busy but there are of course times when I'm alone, like at night, and I can't stop thinking about him. Maybe tomorrow will be a better day.

You all are wonderful. Dreamer, I'm happy to see I'm not the only one who thinks that one day he'll realize how much love I gave him. That lifts my spirits! Lifestream, I hope your situation works out. You sound like you have a good head on your shoulders. God is definitely helping me through each day Tribecagirl! I can honestly say without Him I wouldn't have the strength to keep going. Thanks again everyone for all of your honesty and advice.

Thanks a lot Jessicake. Its interesting what you said about it taking a month to fully process. That really seems to be the case for me right now. I know you're right... if its meant to be then one day we'll be together again. I need to keep telling myself that!!

Thanks MissTee. I'm trying to keep myself busy, but whenever I have a minute alone my mind goes directly to him. Its driving me crazy!

Hey everyone. I've been lurking, but finally decided to post! I'm 19 and my ex was almost 24. My ex and I were together for 8 months and things were wonderful and pretty serious. He would bring up marriage and we even discussed our future kids names! About 2 weeks before we broke up he started acting distant and didn't want to hang out as much. I finally asked him what was wrong and he told me he didn't love me as much as I deserve. He said he'd been thinking about it a lot and it was really over. That was mid October. Its been almost 3 months since we broke up. We ended up sleeping together 2 times... not because he said he missed me but because I thought by sleeping with him and spending that time together he'd possibly really miss me. He called me 27 days ago and wanted to meet up again. I told him I can't because its emotionally too painful for me. I then emailed him and told him that I hope in the future we can be friends, but for now its too hard because I still have feelings for him. I finished it by saying I was venting and he didn't need to reply. He didn't. I'm on day 27 NC and I'm feeling more miserable than ever. I'm so sad and as much as I try not to, I think about him ALL THE TIME. I still lose sleep. Is it normal to feel even worse after almost a month NC? Why aren't I getting any better?? Im thinking about making a doctor's appointment to ask about antidepressants and medicine for anxiety. Is anyone here on them? Thanks for reading. Oh, and I do have to admit... I still have hope. Maybe one day he'll realize what we had... he just needs to date around first to realize it. Is that pathetic? Lindsay