Hi,
I need advice on my relationship with my best friend.
We have known each other for over 15 years, and tho we dont speak to each other every day (I live abroad), we used to be in touch regularly by phone and msn, she'd come over probably once a year, and I always stay with her for a few days each time I come home (also once a year). She's always been a good friend to me, as I hope I was to her.
Last year was a tough year for me. Some very good things happened to me (I got a brilliant job with a good salary, got to travel around the world and met some great people). But some bad things happened as well. I broke up with my boyfriend of 10 years, felt very isolated, was diagnosed with cancer. Overall it was a very emotional year. (my boyfriend and i eventually patched things up, I'm happy to say)
I tried to be strong and not complain, I didn't want to burden my friend with my negative thoughts, but i phoned her twice when things got too much for me, crying. And she was quite cold with me. She asked no questions or offered support, and never followed up with a phone call. Even when I told her about the cancer, she was very matter of fact and disinterested. It upset me a great deal, as she had been seriously ill 2 year before that, and I was calling her every second day for 3 months.
About a month ago, my boyfriend and I went home for my 30th birthday, and she asked us to stay with her for a week.
We brought her presents to thank her for her hospitality. We bought all her groceries. We cooked for her every evening. We kept her house tidy so she'd have nothing to do when coming home after work.
Her attitude was just off, and I thought we must have done something to upset her, so we really tried to make up for whatever it was we did.
In spite of our efforts, she was just really grumpy all the time.
She gave out about the food we cooked.
She gave out if we bought her a bottle of wine, saying she was sick of drinking all the time.
She gave out about my boyfriend dirtying the kitchen while cooking, even tho he cleaned everything afterwards.
She gave out about having to stay up late to keep us company, cos she had work the following morning. I told her that we didn't want to impose, and she could go to bed at any time, we wouldn't mind at all.
Then on my birthday, we arranged to go out. I was wearing a mini skirt, but nothing in bad taste (after all, I can still pull it off!). She told me I looked like a * * * * *. I brushed it off, thinking she was making a joke. We met some other friends in a pub. She let us pay for all her drinks all night, never put her hand in her pocket. Then at only 11pm, she decided she had enough and left.
At that stage, my boyfriend and I were feeling very uncomfortable staying with her, like we were imposing on her.
The final straw came the morning we left. We had bought all her groceries all week long, including 2 packs of ground coffee. That day, there was very little coffee left. My friend noticed, and started behaving in a very strange way. She asked both my boyfriend and I how much coffee exactly we were using, how come there was so little coffee left, when did we open the second pack, etc...
She just wouldn't let it go, and asked me about the coffee about 30 times. She even dug the empty packs out of the bin to prove that we had used them both!!! I told her that it didn't really matter, that i would by another pack if it was that much of an issue. I felt that her behaviour was really irrational.
Her issue is obviously not about the coffee, that was just an excuse to lash out, she is upset about something else.
Did I really do something to upset her, in which case she should really tell me about it?
Could she be suffering from depression? could this explain her change of behaviour? The fact that she's been very self centered and irrascible? In this case, should I be there for her, tho she doesn't reciprocate?
Or maybe people change, and that's what she became in the last year?
If this has happened to you and your best friend, could you please tell me how you resolved your issues?
I am very upset and angry with my friend, but i still hope that we can do something about it, she used to be a really good person and I would be very sad to lose her.
Many thanks in advance for your advice