Blue Spanner

in gonna do it..sounds like a good plan

Thanks for both of your time btw...cheers!

She dumped this guy when I told her i had feeling for her.If she did say she wanted to test thing out with this bloke,I wouldnt hang around because I would be 2nd chioce

Right get yourself a warm drink or a alcholic bevereage this is over a 2yr period Im 22 and so is my g/f we have been together for 4yrs and she went to uni while I stayed in our home town working.It was all good until we started drifting apart because of the distance.I was distancing myself emotionally from her because she was there having a top time and i was down here in my 9-5.To be honest I was a little bit jealouse of her (I know how pathetic).we started arguing over the phone about me not going to see her as often as she wanted,basically I was a complete nobhead.I just didnt make time for her and didnt seem to care.(was too buzy going out getting wasted).in retrospect through all her texts she loved me truly..I cant understand how I became such a . Then I made another Dumb mistake one night which has truly changed my out look on life. basically I had a bad car accident and lost my licence for a year.And it was the shock of the crash that made me realise what I want from life..and its her!. and I spoke to her a week later after going to court,to tell her how I felt,but she told me she had found someone else (fair anought really),but I knew she still loved me so i wrote her a letter telling her how I felt now she SAYS she has finnished with him. We dont get to spend hardly any time because I have no licence and she works on my days off and visa versa.We have planned a holiday.but something isnt right she is being shady switching her phone off,poor excuses.But she says she loves me.I think she want to test the water with me on holiday and is still keeping him as a back up...maybe. What should I do? I can deal with loosing my car and my licence and almost lost my job..but I cant loose her I know im no angel but doesnt everyone deserve a 2nd chance.Im not the same person I was before Thanks for reading,Feel free to right what ever you want no matter how harsh,but anything constructive would be helpfull