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i feel really stupid about the way i am feeling at the moment, but this is really annoying me. recently my boyfriend and my sister have been talking quite a lot and sending eachother private messages etc. the other week he even asked her if she would like to stay over at his apartment after a night out. on the telephone last night he was asking me if my sister would be in today because he would like to talk to her. he wants her to come out with us on saturday with some of our friends. he has been saying that he will give her a lift etc without even mentioning any of this to me. he seems to know what is happening in my sisters life more than i do at the moment. also, again on the phone last night, when i began talking back to him about my sister being at a guy's house and staying over there he immediately said he had to go which i think is a bit weird. when they are together my sister makes jokes about me and my boyfriend happily goes along with it. it is just really annoying me that he seems to want to talk about her and see her so much all of a sudden. plus i don't really want my sister hanging around with my friends all the time. i also know that he finds my sister attractive, as many lads do. my sister is also a virgin, unlike myself, and is older than me - maybe this appeals to other guys? i love my boyfriend so much and i am frightened of losing him, i think that is the reason why i am feeling this way. i am just scared of him finding somebody better than me. my self-esteem isn't very high at all and although i know that people find my good-looking i don't at all think i am. recently i have mentioned jokingly to my boyfriend about him fancying my sister and he gets in a rage and wants to stop the conversation. do you think i should confront my boyfriend again about this? or am i just being stupid? i know that my boyfriend and my sister are not compatible at all in a relationship, and i know that my sister has no feelings whatsoever towards my boyfriend, SO should it still bother me that my boyfriend might be having feelings towards her?

the way me and my boyfriend first started out was building it up, for instance he first used just 1 finger and then 2 and then 3 and so on with lube over a couple of weeks until we felt ready to do anal. this way it felt a lot less nervous as i knew, in a way, what it would feel like. you have to have a lot of trust in the person you are doing it with so that if you feel uncomfortable you can tell them to stop and you are trusting that they will not hurt you. take it slowly at first and then you can go faster. when you get used to it it becomes really enjoyable and sometimes i crave for it hahaha. you get different sensations from that area to others so it's a whole new pleasure. just remember to relax and use lots of lube!

yer it's normal it's happened to me before it's a female ejaculation