WOW! Thanks everyone. That's a lot to think about. We are both in individual counselling and trying to learn to deal with this situation. But all your responses do help quite a bit and I really appreciate you all taking the time to help.
I really feel like I'm stuck in a position. There isn't a moment in the day that goes by that he isn't begging for me back. Though we are still living together, (for the kids and financial reasons on both our behalfs), I have told him that I can not feel the same for him anymore, without counselling and him proving to me that he DOES deserve me.
The problem is, is that he is constantly questioning me as to, do I think this is going to work out?. I don't have an answer to give him. The truth is, is that I don't know.
I do know that I loved what we had very much. He was so affectionate and caring. He would drop anything on a dime for me. He was what I thought, everything I ever wanted in a man, especially when it came to emotinal respect and his personality.
Is it foolish of me to think that he really IS all these things? If so, What was the infidelity about then?? He says he just made a mistake and could never do it again, but I don't understand why after being so perfect with me, would he do such a thing. AND carry it on so long. He says he was just greedy and wanted what he knew he could have at work, and still come home and have me.
We both were eachothers everything. We held eachother on such a pedastal. We were always together having the time of our lives. I never with held sex from him, so that just can't be an excuse.
I just don't get it.
Anyone see hope in our relationship?
I do love him, or should I say, I truly loved what he portrayed to me while he wasn't messing with this other woman.
Don't know what to think guys.
Thanks again for all your thoughts!