YouAndICollide

I love my mom, no doubt about that, but I'm gonna be 18 in a few months, I'm finishing my last few months in high school and leaving home and moving up north to go to college. Most of my teen years, my dad would be the one to drive me to and from softball and cello lessons and the one at the tournaments and recitals. My mom occasionally showed up for a recital here and there, it bothered me in my younger years, but it's normal for me now. My mom works from 8-5 and then she goes out with her friends and doesn't come home until late at night and when I was 14 and 15 and I needed to talk about LIFE and boyfriends, I went to my dad or my cello teacher who is my 2nd mom...they got me through those years. It hurts to know that I don't have that connection with my mom, that I'm gonna be going out into the world real soon and my mom doesn't care that she didn't spend that time with me... This morning I had my senior recital on my cello, we play, get judged, critiqued, etc., my dad couldn't make it because he's in New Jersey so my mom came...the judge pretty much tore me apart and didn't say one good thing about my performance, I tried to be strong as I walked off, but when I went outside it hurt and I cried, I didn't go to my mom, I went to my cello teacher, and my best friend and her mom and I gave them hugs...but when I gave a hug to my mom, I didn't feel it, I didn't feel that mother-daughter warm feeling you're supposed to get that makes you feel better inside, I didn't...I got that from my teacher and my friend's mom, and others, but not my own mother... and I've realized that whenever I'm sad and my mom will ask me what's wrong, I TRY opening up to her, but it doesn't feel right....after all these years I feel like she's not a person I can turn to to cry on... I'm so emotionally confused...and I don't know where I stand with my mom...I just wish she were there in my teen years....

Tomorrow is me and my boyfriend's 8 month anniversary. I'm head over heels in love with him...the thing I love most about our relationship is that we don't get each other expensive material objects, we usually give each other things that we spend a lot of time making or something from the heart that reflects our love for each other. Last month I made him this giant collage of hundreds of pictures of us together and around the border I put the song lyrics to our song. He made me this memory box, painted it and everything and inside he put a whole bunch of little things that we've kinda been through together. So...cutting to the chase, he's amazing, and I want to make him a mix tape, well a CD, and I want to put it in his car tonight so when he's driving to school tomorrow he'll be like, "What's this CD?!" Haha, so I need a few song suggestions, I already have a few songs like: "Faithfully" - Journey, "Somewhere only We Know" - Keane, "Anywhere With You" - Saves the Day, "I Caught Fire In Your Eyes" - The Used, "This Heart of Mine" - Red Hot Valentines...and a few more Sooo...I need your help!!! I need songs that aren't like CORNY CORNY love songs...but like songs that let him know I'm crazy about him...I'm sure you get me. THANKS A BUNCH!

What i mean is that they know each other in real life and all, but they're just saying it on the net...

My boyfriend and I have been going out since September, we met at the beginning of the school year and we've been going steady ever since, but we go to different schools and know different people. I'm pretty busy so I hadn't had time to check out what the new craze on the net was, myspace, and my boyfriend told me to get one so he could show me off and I did. (this was Nov) I haven't been able to check it lately, but I did on Friday and my boyfriend is quite the popular guy...and he gets all these comments from these girls who are pretty and they're saying stuff like, "Hey Baby, last night was fun, love you." and then he'd reply with an, "I love you." and there was another one about some girl wearing his shirt and he posts a lot of comments to girls saying things like, "You're so hot, you looked so hot tonight, you're beautiful, etc" Don't get me wrong, it is the net, but I don't know these girls, and yes they are pretty, and yes I am jealous. He's supposed to be mine, and only tell me that he loves and I'm the only one who's supposed to be wearing his clothes....I mean cheating? It's jsut myspace, I keep telling myself that, but idk because we do go to different schools.