Spawn

Yes i am dating one right now. i am her first and she has been very mature and very understanding.

 

I dunno wots so big issue abot this....to each his own.

 

If i hadn't asked this girl out i dunno i would have missed out on a sweet girl just for thinkin like that.

 

ha well if you don't like it just move on people....

we talked about it and he begs me not to leave and that "its just a turnign 21 thing and everyone goes through it and ill get over it please dont leave"

Ouch thats gotta hurt, same thing was said to me by a girl, from a guys perspective- that hurt, listenin all those words hurt real bad....i ma sure your bf must be in this world of confusion right now about whats happennin with your relationship n why things are changing.

 

When i was in that situation i was really committed and didn't expect such a question from ma girl. But people change its a fact, you are 21 and want to explore life, probably date more guys....not at all your fault.

 

At that time i thought i deserved someone who wanted to be in a committed relationship without any of these thoughts. Like i never thought of being single while bein in a committed relationship.

 

If these thoughts are comin in your mind then i did better say to let this guy go, cause i know it hurts real bad being the guy and listenin to all this.

 

But i wasn't there when she asked for ma friendship, i just left without lookin back at all.

 

Cause once i understood there are really cool girls lookin for a committed relationship i just didn't find any point waitin for that girl who had doubts about us or who wanted to break off just to be single and explore life.

reluctan2breath

 

there is one thing - the day you fall for someone and really like him for the way he is, these all things that you feel bothers you will fade away hopefully.

 

but when you find that one hold on to him with all that you got.

 

never make all the guys aware of wot you feel, the problem is you can't date people on the basis of penis sizes, you will lose out on good guys or probably end up settlin for some one you might not like otherwise.

 

There are guys too who look for girls with big boobs, backs n stuff....its a fact but then its their life.

 

anyways people change, 5 years down the line you might not even think like this lol.....

 

Good luck...have fun be nice.

I don't know wot to say...mods could have closed this thread with that info.

 

anyways for me a good friend has gone forever...

The thing is, my ex has my home number and direct line at work. I can't change those but then he cant send text messages to those either.

 

excellent.

 

screen the calls on those lines and it wud just be fine

 

take care..and try to keep yourself busy with something else from now on.

yup change the number, easy as pie or else tell them politely but firmly to stop contacting you.

Hoobastank - The Reason

 

 

I'm not a perfect person

There's many things I wish I didn't do

But I continue learning

I never meant to do those things to you

And so I have to say before I go

That I just want you to know

 

I've found a reason for me

To change who I used to be

A reason to start over new

and the reason is you

 

I'm sorry that I hurt you

It's something I must live with everyday

And all the pain I put you through

I wish that I could take it all away

And be the one who catches all your tears

That's why I need you to hear

 

I've found a reason for me

To change who I used to be

A reason to start over new

and the reason is you (x4)

 

I'm not a perfect person

I never meant to do those things to you

And so I have to say before I go

That I just want you to know

 

I've found a reason for me

To change who I used to be

A reason to start over new

and the reason is you

 

I've found a reason to show

A side of me you didn't know

A reason for all that I do

And the reason is you

you are a big girl lilac, there are better things to do in life, think about Uni, think about psychatry....you want to do all those stuff, so for that you need to be in perfect health sweety

 

Please make sure you go this monday, no more excuses dear....its now and now.

 

Nuthin to be afraid of.....abhi kya hai, jao, meet up with the doc, we wanna know wots hapenning more than anybody else.

 

ones the weight loss is taken care of....things might improve, so be there this monday.

 

Please do tell your parents about this, atleast your dad, he cares a lot about you and deserves to know whats happenin with you.

 

take care tu

jao magar tension math lo....main aur fallout hai na....kyun fallout ji....aap ho na?

 

hey fally don't worry thats hindi and sometimes u do tend to understand them afterall the world cud be a small place for indians someday lol

 

we are tha indians you cud be assimilated...resistance is futile!

i think in my first relationship it was cause of the reason of being alone and that probably made me stay even though i was gettin hurt left right center...then her ex comes around she starts developin feelings for him and again starts hurtin me...that was pure first class top of the line mental torture.

 

Second one we mutually agreed rather took a mature decision to say our bye byes cause there were lot of issues surroundin religion, caste and color...i was ready to go against ma parents but she wasn't, she wanted ma parents consent too, aah we broke it off just yesterday.

 

Although i felt crap and alone initially, i think my work took my mind off it...i am ok now, so its not like i wud go beg and stuff like i did in my first one, i think i know how to live alone now in a more mature manner...and a bit of cryin helps too

i am shocked kramper i just talked to her in the morning....really shocked...my condolences and prayers go out to her friends and family

ok things are gettin really scary at ma end....i have taken off ma email id and address of ma profile.

 

I am gettin all ma ex's friends and her current bfs friends on my visitors log.

 

its link removed...the google thing.

 

I know i did a mistake of gettin into her profile and then many of her friends too...but i really regret that.I have not put up any posts on the blogs, the scrapbooks or even messaged her or anybody else.

 

lets c where this goes..am i overeactin??

hmm...seems like a brand new state of the art keylogger lol

 

well keyloggers usually don't get installed by themselves and very less likely over internet.

 

whats your firewall thingy? are you the only user of this pc?

well you are smart doyathink just uninstall it....lol

 

anyways i have more - Adaware, Windows Defender, pestpatrol...the problem is now a days a you need a combination of antispywares.

 

pestpatrol corporate is good one....spywareblaster doesn't allow spywares to be installed. These days some Antivirus do some of the spyware removin part as well. AVG is free and is good imo.

 

of these spywareblaster and spybot are good freewares...there are more i think i had put up one big list in OT forum....i will get the link.

He knows how to get past things like that. He's a computer tech (licensed) on the side. Someone already came to him with a computer that had windows xp on it and a password, and he got through it so they could use the computer. So nothing I can do will help. Thanks anyway.

 

well there are ways to fool even einsteins......there are greater levels for security too does the names ntfs, rights, security....ring any bells.

 

EDIT: spybot removes keyloggers as is many such spyware removal tools.....if you want pm me sometime with your pc on i might help ya out with it.

if you have Xp or 2000 make a new user and password protect it...don't use easy, familiar passwords, use names+numbers combination.

 

In any case if you have many members in your family its best to create a new user for all of em...

 

no sharing of workspace = peace of mind.

ok i will say somethin serious now

 

i had a huge butt.

sometimes craigslist stuff is meant for some hearty laugh....if you have had a bad day, go and chek somethin out there, some sound funny, some just need regulation.

 

Do they verify all that what is put up there.....i really don't think so.

 

I will pass this..

I forgot to say this last time....but you have not let yourself down. You are human and unfortunately we all have these things called 'emotions' that do us over from time to time....

 

You have taken a step back on the route to recovery...but you'll leap forwards soon....you recovered once, you healed...you will do it again - and be even stronger this time round...

 

X

 

thanks sparkle and others too

 

i don't know why it hurts to hear that she is happy and workin out in life even thought i am still happy for her cause i wanted her to get a job and concentrate on her studies when we were together...she is doin exactly that accept now i am not with her.

 

I hope she remains happy the way she is, i am not a nice guy in her opinion just like some other guy who say somethin and does somethin

well she is over me for sure....feel crapped out again, i can feel for all those guys who bump into their exs each day now. if one small ,one side contact, can do this, can't imagine what the scene wud be like meetin in person.

i hope so jd....i just got up dreamin everythin about her, couldn't sleep with her memories before that.

 

man does this suck.

 

anyways....like her ex i won't do the same mistakes of contactin an ex while she is in a committed relationship more than that she is workin on her graduation which she had left and i had been tryin so hard to get her to do that.

 

She has finally gone back to college, has a job, in a committed relationship with some guy....i am happy for her.

 

I will leave it at that....spawney is a nice guy and can still go thru this pain once more

i think i will just take this pain on again, i dunno i hate the netspeak she still uses to communicate.

 

people over there say she is matured and stuff, she may have but i don't want any friendship cause i know how it was when i was with her....it was pure torture.

there is a difference DBL....i was the one who told her to stop contacting me and then told her a lie so she wud go back to her ex feelin all hurt from ma side.....

 

the way she used to talk to her ex and all at 2 AM and stuff....don't want to recall...it put me thru nightmares.

 

I somehow went thru all the contacts she been havin with people...they are all there to be seen, she is happy now and moved on works as a computer teacher for some school.

man i just have to get my compsure back.....i feel the same pain as i did long time back

 

guess me shakin so much means its trouble and i shouldn't venture more into that territory....

 

i just never expected her to be on link removed

But still don't let her know things bother you.

 

Silence helps?

she is gonna find out and feel probably the same way as i am now....