When he lived in Jersey, he couldn't stand it. The cost of living is more expensive and he lived with 90 year old grandparents who are about to pass away, respectfully. We both know that it's going to be much better in VA, living wise. I'm just reallly sad that we can't see eachother as often as we had before he moved. I just can't take it. It's really tough.... wow.
It's definetly going to be a while before we can be together again. He told me before he left that he would visit me every few weeks. I didn't realize him not being in sight everynight was going to be this tough on me. A few days after he left, all kinds of feelings/emotions hit me like a ton of bricks. All I keep thinking is, "Oh my god! I lost him, he's gone!"
Anyway, I started college late and so I have a long ways to go before I graduate. It's going to be a while especially since I'm a dual degree student. It's double, the load on my shoulders.
Oh and he wouldn't have been fine staying in Jersey. This is probably another reason why he left for the better. His birth mother lives here in Jersey and he can't stand her. She left him when he was born and yada. So, if my dad was the only parent who raised me, and he moved to another state, I would move right along with him and tell my mother to fly a kite....just my opinion.
i gotta go to bed...drained.