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still a relapse, officially 30 days now since no contact, she still keeps following me on instagram, like i mean the stories.. sorry , after all these advices, i am still clinging on this. I wanted to have a conversation and clear and move on. I feel arrogant for not doing it myself, I still don't feel like looking for someone new, something is bothering , my intiuition is saying. Sh.. i hate to be stuck here.

Such a difficult situation brother, personally, it's a tough pill to swallow for me. Did u ask her what was the reason that she had felt like doing this. Yes it's tough again, when you have feelings, one main thing recently I learned , which I will carry for lifetime is, "regardless of how we feel we need to make right decisions" More power to you. Everything will come good

I know you all giving the right advices, and that's what keeps me not commit stupid emotional stuff like reaching her now , thank you for that. I am still working on it. Please bear with me, 🙏

Feelings are blind 😔

Well, everything is going well, suddenly I got feelings, F, I know we are very different.. Been a month almost she is still following my story, in Instagram, like until few hours ago today. I didn't interact from the day she said she needed break because of overwhelmed feel. Why such hypocrisy, if she felt overwhelmed why is she still actively following what I post and share.. (please I am not buying she just randomly scroll through, it's been a month, I post everyday twice or thrice, now I don't buy that random swipe through idea) Guys, sorry, I know I am little paranoid here but this is very intriguing.. I mean it's not even for the rekindling, it's about , clearing , I don't want assumptions or acting too Sigma , just want to know the actual thing, yes I am curious and just talking through.. and we walk away.. I am not bothered about she following me after I have a call, but now it's a limbo , what she really gets from following me.. Is it signal like, "I want to talk but I said something else now I dont feel to make firstc contact, just text me " F.. lol, I dream too much, this is the problem, assumptions are painful

I like you for being so straightforward 🤣😎🧘 I mean , the expectation were completely inside my head, never initiated or shown it. I am acting stoic now 🧘🧘🧘 Also days getting better as time flies :)

The past me would have asked the person atleast one more time and I am someone who wants clear verbal answer even if it is brutal, but most people are not ready to speak on our faces because of two reasons , one being nice , two , they don't have courage. I send you blessings, hope things workout naturally but i bless you more to get someone who is interested in you really, the one who can put efforts

for sure, i am not saying like imma jesus, i meant like people who are involved in my life and ofcourse general idea of having a mindset of thinking good things should come for everyone stuff. Here, as a person who is more experienced than myself, I take your inputs and thanks for sharing intricate details of how you approach situations. I do care about her feelings, that is why after my last message , i did not make one inch of contact. Here i came to understand myself and the situation better and not to do something stupid acting on my feelings. The small clinging hope that what if she comes back from break and reaches me. as time flies I started seeing other red flags about her and it was all started because of the efforts she made, I was beginning to be ok with different set of values she have because I was like if she likes/loves then other stuff can be taken care of. I also come to realise shared values and not letting down our own values is highly important 🙂 Thanks again

Thanks for making me blush .. ha ha. I mean I will make sure any person who is going to choose me to have good things coming 🙂 For now, all the wise people have been clearly saying one thing which is move on, yea, after 3 weeks i kind of moved on , i mean not in a mindset to look for someone, just working on my art and also added few more physical activities 🙂

you put things together in a lovely fashion that also rings a strong bell in my head. I am too stuck with perspectives and morals taught to us and believe everyone cares about others feeling. "wanting things to not end" attitude is kind of working on me. Yes, I am growing as an adult with each of these events for sure. I will give a closure to myself and move on

It's not how i feel but now i am thinking about reasons, she said, i am little rough, I replied I will get better and apologized if she felt uncomfortable at the moment itself. so now I think maybe even that is another reason or she sees that as an issue too much, i don't know, but when things are left open to assume, I assume a lot, It's my over thinking. but anyways, the major reason i want to reach her back is not completely about winning her back, it is about myself, well, i worry that i have hurt her feelings or did not see certain things see communicated, i am just running the scenes from past again to find clues/ answers. Sorry, I know i try to see too much into the fog.

yea.. plain and clear answer I understand it totally, just refusing to believe it still but yea I know i can see the reality of things

Thank you for such a strong reply. Like a bro advicing 🙂 Ya, My feelings or ego, I don't know is looking for ways to have not to be left in a cliffhanger kind of situation and to feel convinced of the situation. How can someone do this unless there is something wrong from myside, kind of thought i guess. I have deleted my bumble 2 weeks ago as I not used to or even to think about as a simple thing and start seeing others . I am preparing myself, and it makes real sense, Long distances are a pain, and yes it looks a fantasy and especially not something ideal to build in early stages itself. "most people are NOT our match" - i'll treat this as mantra. I will keep my pursuit on and every experience like this definitely teaches a lot and to be more wise for sure. Thanks a lot again 🙂 stay blessed

All of you guys say makes total sense to me, I don't want to block her or atleast without a proper closure. I will be public anyways, I will grow more so people gonna follow me, so i don't want to do the blocking for sure. My heart says I have to talk this out and also express myself with her way of handling things regardless of how she reacts, like not an argument, just to convey and look for a proper closure and cut ties completely.

unstable people shake the stable people as well. Bro, Trust me, i recently went through this, I was strong i know, but the recent date shattered me, but thank god, I am in well matured mental state, so fixing comes easier. I realized its hard to save people who are not ready to be saved. As i say this, i still have feelings for this person, but no matter how we feel making right decisions is very important