Julie_Julie

Yes, I understand what you are saying, but he has actually suggested to me before when we were going to a fancy dress party that I would look really hot in a school girl outfit..... I thought he was just kidding at the time, but now I realise he was being serious!

Thank you for your outlooks on the situation, you have given me self realisation and I feel alot better now that I have stopped panicing and taken time to think about it. You have also given me a boost in my confidence. I have devised a plan which I think will really work... I have decided that I dont want to change him, but I am going to try to give him what he wants. I am going to remind him that being in reality with me is priceless compared to being in fantasy with those other women!!! Today I went to the adult shop and bought one of the costumes just like the ones that the girls were wearing on the internet pictures....this really skanky schoolgirl outfit! Even the knee high socks! I have to pick my boyfriend up tonight after he finishes work, so i will dress up before i go to pick him up and just wear my big shoulder to feet coat. When we get home he usually goes and lies in bed so when he does i will just take off my jacket right in front of him. hehe I cant wait to see his jaw drop to the floor!!!! The way i think we can work this out is by me actually becoming his fantasy. Maybe this will encourage him to talk to me more if he wants to try something new! What do you think of that idea??

Having sex is about being in love... Being in love is being connected with a person on a whole higher level where you are both completely entwined with each other, including body mind and soul!!! Mentally having sex with someone else in your mind is just as much cheating as having sex physially. It hurts just as much aswell!!!

I have never used one of these discussion boards before, but I am so glad I stumbled accross this one, because now I am not feeling so alone in the world. My boyfriend tried to hide the porn he had been looking at on the internet by deleting the history files, but he forgot to delete the temporary internet files...and thats how I busted him. I am so in love with him and cannot imagine life without him ,however,I cannot believe how selfish he is in going and making me feel so inadaquit and sickened. I have been living healthy for 6 months now after verging on annorexia nervosa. Knowing he is lusting after these women in his mind is pushing me back over the edge with this sickness. It makes me feel so horrible inside and so sick to the stomach. It makes me feel so ugly. When he masturbates to porn he is cheating on me. I support this fact by saying that love is an absolute togetherness of two people, in body as well as in mind. Its when you are connected to him on a completely higher level. So, i believe sleeping with other women in the mind is just as bad as "physically" sleeping with other women.