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finding someone to be our own can be sometimes a life time journey but you allways find someone and it's rewarding try just not to think of that to much

yea i guess your right ... but you probably know that we have to have some kind of ignition so this feelings disapear ... but im feeling better now... sometimes it strikes me just like an lightning and i feel like crap and cry and she.. but thanks sometimes is good to tell somebody how you feel ... im going to stick to this forum so if ya all need something pm me or something []

to say the truth im crap at much everything i tried draw i tried music i have a eletic guitar which i am crap at lol i love computer programming but i crap at it to ... and God does it really exist? if He exist why does He let to be much sufering ??? and if it is us humans were made to destroction and suffering of every thing even ourselfs ... ...well i had a girl that dumped me for incompability lol ... can you buy this ??? she left me for such small things as i dont shave every day or i have a litle extra weight ... i put up with so much things for her like her trying to kill her self and her stupid jeolus ... 4 years she made me suffer every day ... i loved her so much ... now im falling with another girl that i know that is not a nice lady ... i often feel like sht*** and thank you for reply really thank you

hi there im not really thinking of killing my self not that i dont whant to die i dont have the courage to do it and is just that i didnt find any bether topic to post , i hope you forgive me for my bad english... i whanted to know whats the porpuse of living if we know that we wiil die unhappy and alone? why should i whait till im old and sick if im already as it is... maybe im beeing selfish and there is "gazilions" of ppl that are worst than me but i cant help it.. yea i have my parents and im sure that they love me but i feel that they have me as a disapoint i dont know really how to write it but it is like when you put all ur hope in something and it turns to be nothing...and it keeps me awayoff them so there be less ways of i can disapoint them ... my friends or so called friends are just as somebody as is your friend but just so you can help them when the time come that i need help they almost tell me to F* off im not very good at school so i dont have any perspective at profetional career so i feel like a disaster at all points in my life... so thanks for reading i needed to put this somewhere as i dont have any friend that i can talk to or ifi talk to my parents they will take me to some doctar that would fell me up with drugs ...