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Hahahahahahahahaha thank you itsallgrand! Views coming from you count as double for me 🙂

I see the teacher doing these moves and although they look easy there are not. I mean to do it with style. When the teacher does it it's cool, when I try it's like a handicapped trying to dance lol

Yes I do interact of course, chat in between and a bit after the lessons etc. But this is the extent, it didn't happen to find someone yet that I could get closer. However, it's not that I don't socialize, it's that all those interactions are superficial. I want something deeper, and to be frank, I believe the only way to find it is on a girlfriend. A girlfriend that I like and I find interesting apparently, not the ones in the dating apps or the ones I have met through friends because those don't cut it.....Who knows...Maybe someday the planets will align.

I agree about the lying part which is a red flag. But dude, from the title "shocking truth" I thought we were talking about a murderer lol. In most cases, you need to add from 3 to 20 in whatever number a girl tells you. Not that it matters in the end and I think it's dumb to talk about numbers but hey everyone is different.

On another subject, I don't think I can keep up with so many different activities (dancing, shooting, youtube, training and work) for very long. I will continue doing it for a year or so but then something needs to be dropped. The thing is, in whatever I do, I want to get better. So it's not only 1,5 hours of dance lesson once a week because I spend another 2 hours during the week to practice alone. It's not only going to the shooting range once a week, I educate myself about shooting during the week. Youtube videos of course could take from 5 to 20 hours per week from start to finish. Don't get me wrong I love all those activities, I wouldn't do them otherwise. I like many many different things. When I am on the beach and I see people sailing, I really want to try that too. It's sad we don't live long, I would need 20 lives to experience all the things I want. Paradoxically, my work is one of the few things in this world I don't like. Ain't life funny. But man, some days like yesterday I feel so lonely. I do chat with people etc but this does not feel the void. I don't have these days often but it hits me from time to time.

My manager asked me to create a teaser for promoting the online workshop we hold next month. I went to the office yesterday to have a nice/professional background and made it. I posted it on my youtube channel. Initially he told me there is a dedicated marketing team which will help you etc etc. Where is it? lol I did everything alone again. Better this way though, I do it my way. At first he asked me if I can post it on my channel and I was hesitant because I didn't want my channel to get affiliated with any company. The company has an official youtube channel with technical tutorials but it's not popular so they wanted to get viewers from my channel. On the inside, I was thinking, that's sneaky, they want to use my personal channel for their benefit. Then I thought, if I get noticed inside the corporation it would be easier to have a reference to transfer to the US. I don't care much about promotion or petty pay-raises but I do care about moving to the US. I hope the presentation will fare well, I am starting to prepare. And also hopefully they won't forget using me to become more popular. I want something in return too.

Bought a vlog camera and did my first video. I am telling you, I will do everything I wanted that I couldn't do so many years due to chasing jobs lol

1923 is not on the same level with 1883 and yellowstone. The only part I liked was those scenes with Spencer and Alex.

She is partially correct. In the first video I don't agree. I see where is she coming from, however, it's not because it's a man's world, it's because when we are talking about business, work and money, efficiency comes first. Yes, by nature women have a disadvantage there indeed. Blame nature! Although I don't get it, is it a race or competition between genders? As for the second video this is in fact very true. Especially when you talk about more ambitious men. Even in my brother's case where his wife was/is very driven and achieved many things alone, she still has to "follow" the my brother's lead. In return, she gets a lot of help from my brother to get better jobs/more money (and vice versa of course). Personally, there was no way on this earth I would "follow" a gal's lead. I don't follow anybody's lead, certainly not a gal's lead. It's not prejudice, it's an instinct. I do know guys though who are more passive and don't have a problem following the gal's lead. Nature has for everyone.

As it has happened to me in the past, dude, when you get a feeling that a girl is not interested enough in you (that's why she chose the other guy), she is simply not interested in you (for real). At least in my experience.

Hope the bug is fixed with the solution I provided. Let's see. I tested the data, it looks good. Next week will be the real test in production. It's an application for about 5K retail stores in the Netherlands. So even if there is a teeny tiny bug someone from all these stores would notice. Good because you get feedback(or complaints to put it more accurately) immediately, bad because there is always something that is not right. To be honest, I shouldn't complain at all even if I don't like the project. I work on the latest technologies as I wanted, I have good colleagues, I work remotely, I make very good money, there is a chance I could move to the US (we will see how realistic this is), I could work from anywhere in Europe, I could move to the London office (I see they offer 105K pounds which is not bad at all), I mean, realistically it cannot get any better, I have so much freedom and flexibility which is crazy for a corporate job.

Interesting interview. Pleasant guy! Could easily drink a beer with him. For 72 he looks pretty good, I thought he would be around 60 or thereabouts.

It has been a very long day. I've been dealing with a coding bug 4 weeks now. 4 f*cking weeks. I could see my manager's face on the daily call, it was like saying wt*f are you doing all those weeks? This is the thing with coding, you could solve a bug in 20 minutes, you might need 2 months in other cases. It is causing me stress because it's an important task and debugging it is a painstaking and very time consuming process. Today I sat from 7am till now which is just right after 7pm trying to solve this sh*t. I believe I managed to find the solution, tomorrow I will have to test the data and hopefully everything would be ok. I didn't workout today, didn't go for a walk, didn't do anything else, all day was dedicated to this thing. The key when you are trying to solve a puzzle is to work without getting flustered or interrupted. If you start multitasking it ain't going to work. Which usually means you have to do it outside of the normal working hours since throughout the day you would have to join some calls etc etc. Fingers crossed the data would look ok tomorrow because I feel like pulverizing my computer.

"He'd be in the trunk of his car by the end of the week, along with the psychiatrist". Legend hahahaha

The mafia has more rules than the army. Where there is a lot of money and power involved there is no room for freedom. Big corporations, lobbies, mob....hm...potato, potahto

The guy is pretty quick-witted for his age. I like that he has no inner conflict for representing the mafia. Why in the mafia there is always an Italian-American called Tony? Every Italian-American is named Tony lol

A new shooting range opened in close proximity, 30 minutes drive from here. It's an outdoor one, I like the location, it's also next to a military base which is even better because people are more careful. I really liked it. It's an expensive hobby but I will join the local shooting club and spend a couple of hours every Saturday morning. It's not as fun as hip hop (not even close) but I really like it. It's worth spending a few hundred euros every month on this. I think now I am doing all the activities I like. My schedule is pretty full. I believe if I add anything else I will do everything half-*ssed and I don't want to do that. I don't like my project at work and it's making me stressed, however, this is what is paying the bills so....

I hate going to the gym in the afternoon when it's packed. I have visited many gyms around the world and they all share a commonality. Smelly dudes that is. And old men wandering around naked in the changing room. There must be a sign when you enter a gym saying: 1. Take a motherf*cking shower before you come 2. We all have d*cks, no need to display it. Certainly not to other dudes...damn it doesn't even make any sense.

This is the last one we use for the choreography. The beat is relatively slow but when you dance it properly it feels like a sprint. I agree with P.Diddy, I need a pretty woman by my side too. Hahahaha It's getting pretty busy at work lately with all those presentations and youtube videos and I am starting to feel overwhelmed. At least I spend a couple of hours in the evening either to work out or practice the choreography.

The dude knows 😎 Ponytail...hmmm.. ponytails are sexy, especially two long ponytails...add a navel piercing, black stockings and some mirrors....hmmm....foolproof baby time hahaha Yes freakin genetics. And how they shuffle is truly amazing, they are born for this. I put 2 kg recently and I feel I am about to faint during the dance class. If you add a barbell it would be like doing crossfit. Hip hop is pretty intense cardio. Cardio is one thing, this I can handle, the other is to understand and "feel" the rhythm which either you have it or you don't. I don't. I s*ck big time hahahaha. But I like it 🙂

I can't even imagine hahaha

I didn't know this song was from 1996. Damn, that decade had the best songs. The lyrics and beat are so cool! I would love to see a birth-rate chart of the US when this song was released hahahaha

If parenting was what you really wanted yes sure. From what you have written, you tried a lot until you found your husband so I take it you didn't settle for anyone because you wanted a child. Am I wrong? I think from my post it came across that kids are the reason some of these people look like this. No, kids are awesome if this is what you want and if it's the right time for you. I started pondering about kids recently and I was never interested before. I don't know if it will ever happen for me but if it happens be sure I will have them because I would want it and I would be pretty happy with my decision. Regardless what the reason is, I meet many people frustrated with their lives. They look like me a few years back. I was certainly not in a good space and it was because my life didn't go as I wanted at all. I managed to fix this the past 3 or so years and I can tell you I am the happiest, most confident and most fulfilled I have ever been. And hopefully it's going to get even better. I know happy people and I can tell when someone is content with his/her life. I also know a lot of chronically unhappy people and usually it's because they settled for the wrong job, wrong partner, wrong location or something like this. There are many people who are unhappy in their marriage but when you have kids you can't take it back.

When I walk by a park where parents bring the kids to play I feel so fortunate. Some women but mostly men look like...how can I put it...like depressed bored neutered beaten dogs. It's obvious they don't like their lives. Maybe they didn't want kids, maybe they don't like their wives, maybe they didn't do what they wanted in life...I really don't know but damn they look like they have quit life. Some of them are my age. I do have some spells of loneliness, this is true, however, between my life and theirs, I feel soooooooo blessed. On the other hand, I don't feel sorry for them whatsoever. Everyone makes his/her own choices in life. They made their bed like I did/doing. I believe the majority of people grow up bitter and resentful for the very simple reason they didn't live the life they wanted. The thing is, they didn't even try in the first place. They just went with the flow because it was convenient and this is how things are supposed to work. Good luck not growing resentful towards life. Life is a gift, only if you make it. I get it, it's not simple or easy living the life you want. It requires a lot of boldness and a sense of adventure. I don't think you should inherently be a very bold person or a very adventurous person. The only thing you have to do is follow you heart and your instincts and learn from your mistakes. Way easier said than done of course but it is what it is.

Maybe the photo was taken in Greece lol The best part is after work I can go for a walk on the beach.