willbob

o, and, i wud say that she loves me equally and indefinitely... that tho i will find out from her once im sure that i am in love with her, and once ive told her so. she is driving me nuts and i love that, i truly believe that i exist on this planet for her, and her only. ha, lol, 1 more thing that we hav taken on. that monday i asked her out when we were walking home, i had the urge to let her know that she is my goddess, and she replied that every goddess needs a god. (or similar to dat), and so dats how we refer to each other, i feel this is a healthy lil joke to have in our relationship, wot du think? (~) willbob (~)

hey again every1, k, 1stly, im only 15 and shes only just turned 15... is it possible to feel real love at our age? Quite likely i think, but im not sure... 2ndly, link removed , i visited this to find out more, and after thinking about it, i felt that many of the ideas suggested there applied to how i feel for her, apart from the 1 where it says: 'You have no doubt you're in love' i feel very strongly, that im in love with her but obviously, thats why im posting this, just to check. 3rdly, some of my friends dissaprove (or sumthing like that) of me going out with her, ie. i was asked, "do you actually find her attractive?" because, according to some people, she isnt very attractive, but i think they r nuts, i find her to be the most beautiful person ive ever seen, despite wot they say and i feel i dont really care in the slightest about wot they think of her (its my opinion of her that counts, surely?), wud this b becuz i love her? 4thly, i really cant stop thinking of her, absolutely honest there, and i the time that i spend away from her is erm, i think agonising would be over-doing it! more like, incomplete ... u get me? I hav felt incomplete 4 the majority of my life, but since i asked her out, monday 7th, i hav felt like sum1 else; much more proud to be me, much fuller, happier in general. 5th, we hav french kissed several times in the past few days, she is the only girl i hav ever kissed, cud it b simply this that is making me feel all these things? i hav had girlfriends b4, and i thought i loved them 2, but in this relationship, all my feelings are much stronger, and there are many more that i never knew of b4 her. I doubt it very much but, cud these be due to the fact that she is the only girl i hav ever kissed? cheers guys, just say nething at all... woteva springs 2 mind (~) willbob (~) p.s i want to go further than french kissing, but i am not sure that she will take it as if thats all i want from her, nor am i sure that she is ready to go further yet and there is simply no way that i am goin to risk it w/o us both being quite alryt with it. However, i was not ready for our 1st kiss, on the very monday that i asked her out (i was very happy for her to let me know how she feels about me by doing that so i hav no-problems with that), the fact that she was soooooooo keen to get that done makes me wonder if she really is going places fast . And if she wants more from me than french kissing, where do we go? making out? thats the sorta thing u do on the bk row of the cinema aint it? thx 4 ne help and advice, soz u had 2 read loads... i really appreciate it!!

All I am doing here is putting together sum ideas of things that u can do to take ur mind off self-harm, these r a few that i do when i need to calm down: 1. Write a poem; often about wot i am feeling or y i want to cut myself. (this is a good 1 bcuz it gets the emotions onto paper as opposed to my arm) 2. Ride my bike; only bcuz im a mountain biker tho, i do this sum of the time, it is especially good if u really ride as hard as u can. 3. Play my bass; another personal fave, i really take out my frustrations on it, and ovcourse the result is music, which calms me down no matter wot. 4. Try to shove a knackered old pencil thru sumthing, carefully mind, it would defeat the object if u ended up stabbing ur hand 4 instance, i hav a pencil case with many holes in it. 5. Call a few m8s up and c if u can go over 2 their house, whether u go over to talk 2 them or just to spend a little time with them. Hope these help at least sum1, it will hav served its purpose if just 1 person stops self-harming, 4 me? so far so gd, its been a fair few days and I hav used each 1 of these at least once. If ne1 has more to add then post ur ideas here. Gd luck every1... willbob