i miss our good times, but i know there were more bad in the end. i don't regret a second - we created the most beautiful baby in the world. it's difficult to express the wide array of emotions i have. i want the absolute best for her and i know you want the same. i hope we see eye to eye at least on a level that will be beneficial to her. she doesn't deserve anything less. i did and continue to do what i think is best, first for her, then for me, then for you. that's the only order i can manage, in order to keep my sanity.