I miss you so very much KC.
How is everything with you? I'm pretty confident that you're doing better than I am since I haven't heard from you at all in 4 days. Generally speaking I've been ok. I can carry on with my daily tasks without the thought of us interfering too much, but there are moments when I go into episodes of depression.
I've been trying to keep myself busy with work, my hobbies, and my friends. But I can only work a limited number of hours at work, video games get boring after about an hour or two, and my friends aren't always available. I've gotten used to hanging out with you at least 4 times a week, and these moments of loneliness are getting under my skin.
What hurts the most is that I honestly thought we had something good going on for the both of us, but you had already begun to move on even before the break up. Your family was so nice to me and we had plans of moving in together one day with our sugar gliders. This is probably wishful thinking but I would love to turn all these plans and dreams that we had into reality.
You told me one of the reasons why you ended it is because you needed to become more comfortable with yourself, and that your feelings changed for me. I truly hope that you find that comfort this new year, and I will be waiting for you to contact me in some way. This is probably another wishful thought but if your feelings for me grow back, I will gladly take you back in my life and do whatever I can do make the relationship into an everlasting one. My facebook, phone number, and email address will not change anytime soon.
But if you never decide to talk to me again, at least I'll be in a better place. In the meantime, I will be attempting to make new friendships and meet new people.
With love,
HK