Einah1281

Omg...I feel terrible. I can't sleep. I've been crying all night. I just wanna be normal again.....

I'm really pissed off tonight and I really feel like crying, but my pride won't let me. I guess my suspicions were right. You are seeing someone else. My goodness that was fast! Didn't you just get out of a relationship almost 2 months ago??? I hope you didn't work things out with that psycho chick? That would be a total slap in the face to me! Is it that bad to be by yourself for awhile?

I was listening to "You Were Always On My Mind" today. I never really listened to the words till now, then I thought of you and I started to weep.

I'm finding it very hard to quit you........

Had a good New Years Eve...wish you were here to spend with me. Kinda sad you didn't bother to text me a Happy New Years...but oh well. Hope you are safe and sound wherever you are. My love is always with you no matter what. I still love you.....

I need to stop wondering when you are going to strike again. Its doing nothing for my healing....

I can't believe I let your response mess up my Christmas. I know I should be grateful you responded, but I was expecting a little bit more. So much for my expectations.

I guess since your attempts of contacting me have gone ignored you now have your friends call me and texting me out of the blue. I'm not gonna front, I like the fact I cross your mind every so often. Its still not enough for me though. You either go hard or go home.

I'm a little salty that you didn't text to wish me a Happy Thanksgiving. I guess this is your way of getting back at me for not returning your text. Oh well....

I'm sitting listening to "Say" by John Mayer and thinking of the last time I heard it while riding in your car holding your hand. Remember how you used to reach out to hold my hand while you were driving??....I miss those times. I wish you had not contacted me monday night, because now I'm remembering all of the good times. I'm wondering what you are up to?? Are you still with her??? Are you wondering why I have not responded to your text??? Do you even care??? Why did you throw it all away??? I loved you...but I guess that wasn't enough for you.

Had a date tonight and all I could think about the fond memories we shared in that same exact resturant. I miss you so much

I swear you are sooo funny. You text me out of the blue seeing if I was "okay". I don't think your "committed friend" would like that very much. God you're pathetic.

Hello CC, I feel like an idiot because after 3 1/2 months...I still miss you, even though you treated me less than human the last two months of our short relationship. My heart still drops down to my stomach when I think back to 3 weeks ago when you told me you were happy with you're new chick (who you haven't known that long), and you were ready to take on the responsiblity of her 3 yr old child. It hurts even more because I have not heard from you since then. I have my family and friends around me telling me how much of an insensitive jerk you are, I see it for a while and think i'm better off but I'm reminded of the good memories soon after i'm back at square one. You've took sooo much from me....your friends, your wonderful family, Lakewood and my self-esteem. Through all this I have no desire to check your facebook or to contact you...whats the use??? I have to keep in mind that you are not happy and you're a selfish human being and it'll be only a matter of time before your true colors will shine through, because its unrealistic you've changed in a 3 month span. You actually think all your deep-rooted issues will go away with this new chick???....please. Change starts within. As long as you habor the anger you have from your parent's divorce, your dad, and your ex...you will never change. I almost feel sorry for her and her child, because she'll soon deal with your many moods...but thats none of my concern. I know I'll come out of this a better person from all of this..so apart of me is not worried. You may take joy in the fact that you hurt me (because you are sick in that way) but I know who I serve and HE will see me through all of this. Hope you live to sleep well......someday.