a friend...

[BlueCoconut]

Hey Everyone,

There's this girl I had my first crush on, never really totally acted on it. Then I gave up and decided to stay friends with. We each went to study college in different states. But strangely enough I learned more through the emails we exchanged while being away then during the five years during which we were classmates. I feel I got closer to her while being farther away from each other. Right now it's summer we're both home, she's leaving in two days for vacation. I tried to see her today but I got there 30mns late and she had already left. I talked to her later on the phone and apologized. I care a lot about that girl but I don't know how much she does about me. or even if she does at all... I want to see her because if I don't get to see her soon, I might not get the chance for another 4-5 months. She told me she'd be packing all day tomorrow, which to me seems like a little too much. hmm... It makes me wonder if she's mad at me, or it doesn't really matters to her...

The thing is that lately, I have given too much value to many friendships and those people haven't responded properly. I just don't want to find myself anymore caring much more about someone than they do about me.

I'd be glad to receive any advice...

[Smokeycat]

Hey there BlueCoconut!

 

Maybe you've grown to liking this girl more being farther away b/c of the old saying "absense makes the heart grow fonder." It's hard to have any relationship...whether it's a family member, a friend, or a partner/bf/gf... that is long distant. Don't give up hope b/c she may like you...there's always a chance. Sometimes packing does take all day I've packed very many times in my life. Remember, she's a girl she may pack a lot more things for vacation than you would. Just ask her once politely if you can just come by for a little while tomorrow when she takes a break from packing. She HAS to take a break at some point. Calm down about the situation b/c everything will work out the way it's supposed to in the end. Good luck!