Do we keep trying?

[autumn_darling]

alright... so here is the deal... my boyfriend broke up with me... a while ago... and now he wants us to get back together... but thing is... I'm not sure if I want to get back together with him... since he broke up with me I've just been feeling its time to move on and see other guys... *sigh* and now just recently I screwed up real good and ended up going out to another guy's place (when I was supposed to be thinking about what I wanted to happen in our relationship, and I suppose I was in a evil sort of way) and one thing lead to another and I ended up giving him a blowjob... I didn't do it to hurt him or anything... I suppose I did it just to seal my fate... it was really impulsive... and I know what I did was wrong... but... I... I don't regret it... at all... and now... I've told him about going to the guys house and not wanting to get back together but he wont let things go... and I just don't know if we should keep at this or if we should just let it drop...

 

See we have had an on and off relationship for a year and almost a half now and there has been a lot of stress and everything... and I love him... I... I really do (yeah I know you're all laughing now) but I really don't think this relationship is healthy anymore... so I'm torn between my heart and my brain.... My heart says to keep trying... but my brain is telling me just move on and let this go....

 

If anyone can get anything from this and help me a bit without making me feel like a total (insert swear word here) for what I did that would be really cool... I feel like a real fool posting this because he has already posted and I just... god I hate myself for what I did to him...

[HajiMaji]

Aww, you sound like you have a lot of emotions going through your head right now. Its alright though, dont take them too seriously. Sometimes when we go through dramatic situations we have to let some time pass to sort everything out because its hard to know whats going on when we are feeling 100 differnt things.

 

Ill say this, nothing you did was 'wrong'. I think you should take a little break from guys (your ex boyfriend and this new guy) until you feel confident in what you want. Be patient with yourself and youll be surprised how clearly youll be able to see what you really want.

[autumn_darling]

Aww, you sound like you have a lot of emotions going through your head right now. Its alright though, dont take them too seriously. Sometimes when we go through dramatic situations we have to let some time pass to sort everything out because its hard to know whats going on when we are feeling 100 differnt things.

 

Ill say this, nothing you did was 'wrong'. I think you should take a little break from guys (your ex boyfriend and this new guy) until you feel confident in what you want. Be patient with yourself and youll be surprised how clearly youll be able to see what you really want.

 

alright.... thank you... ehehehe this is so difficult.... im only 15 and this is my first relationship... hes talking about being with me for the rest of his life and it scares me....

[twelve]

rest of his life at 15? thats intense.

maybe you guys will get back in the future but for now I see you needing time to just see different people and be young and free.

Tell him you are not ready for a serious relationship now.

If you are meant to be, he will be there when you are ready.

ooo blow jobs *yuck* hehe

[HajiMaji]

Of course it would scare you! Youll get it, just give it time

[autumn_darling]

thank you soooooooooooooo much, you have no idea how much that helps