Murderface Posted November 10, 2011 Share Posted November 10, 2011 Hi, so, my close friends just got engaged this week and I'm extremely happy ...for them. But I feel like . I guess I'm probably just jealous. I shouldn't be, I know it's wrong. They deserve to be happy, they've been together forever (almost 5 years) and I've been with them through the whole relationship. We're all super close, we call ourselves 'The Troublesome Trio'. I've lived with them for over 3 years and in the past I've felt like their third-wheel many, MANY times... but now, just in the last couple of days alone, I'm getting that feeling more than ever. All this talk about wedding dresses, honeymoons, and bridal showers... it's killing me. And I hide it well for the most part but tonight Krystina (one of the engaged roomies) said she could tell I didn't like talking about the wedding stuff and how every time she mentioned it my tune changed. So I decided to be honest with her and told her how it makes me feel lonely... she then said she didn't even like talking to me about relationship stuff including her wedding because it upsets me and in turn makes her feel bad...(and that's not what I want at all) she then proceeded to say how I should be happy for her and not mad or depressed about it. Except, I don't know how to not feel like over this. I'm ALWAYS the single friend. I've tried relationships and I don't know how to express myself well enough to make any of them last. I'm going to be 23 in January and I'm still a virgin who hardly has any dating experience at all. How can I not feel pity toward myself!? I just admire my roomies so much and all I want is what they have. I'm really happy for them and I don't want my self-pity to effect our friendships through their engagement period and beyond. Any suggestions??? Link to comment
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