AvonRepus Posted September 2, 2011 Share Posted September 2, 2011 I did disappear from ENA for a while and I thought I was doing good. Some of you might remember my old threads-married for 3 years,husband drug-addict,cheater,liar,thief bla bla -love is blind,etc. I was facing an eviction but I kept NC ,then he cut off my utilities,NC continued. Till last couple weeks,he's been emailing me,asking me stuff about the house and our cat. Started stopping by "to help me",asking for money,saying he misses me and maybe we can move in together in his home town. I bought my flight ticket last week (I am from Europe,currently living in Ohio) and he was all tears and how I ruined everything by not believing him and accusing him of lies ,so convincing I almost believed him. Next day I found a love card from his I assume ex-girlfriend,so there was proof I was not crazy like he made me think for a second . Proof they were living together and proof he's just another p.o.s. Anyway I kept the letter and did not say anything,I was worried about my cat and he was supposed to take care of her so I kept my poker-face actually I was cheerful and acting normal. The other day we went out together,slept in the same bed,I kinda wanted to see how am I going to feel about it-and it wasn't the same. I thought after 3 months of being miserable and missing him ,his arms around me will bring relief. Thank god I was wrong. Today I got a video clip of him and his new crush making out. Charming. And then I flipped. Again.On his phone,on her phone,on their e-mails. I just flipped. I am leaving in 10 days,living currently in a hotel room I can't really afford,he took all the furnitures and I am kinda feeling lost. And numb. That's what really scares me,I feel like something broke in me,not just heart-broken but emotionally fell apart. I need something good in my life. I was really living my life,I was really moving on,maybe a little bitter,but who wouldn't be.. and now I feel sooo lost. Thanks to him. Why oh why he has to do things like this?! Link to comment
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