wicked6018 Posted July 17, 2011 Share Posted July 17, 2011 i'm dealing with all this pain the best i can. i think my anti depressant has helped with my crying and my appetite. so, now i'm just super depressed, but i can get fat and not cry. great. that really helps. today i ran an errand for my mom. it's the first time i've gotten out of the house in three days. on the errand, i suddenly got a very tight chest and it was hard to breathe. i felt like i couldn't get a deep breath. i have had this sensation in years past. i am pretty sure it is caused by stress, but it is such an uncomfortable feeling. a few years ago, i struggled for many, many months with something known as psychosomatic non-epileptic seizures. these are episodes that are pretty much exactly like epileptic seizures, but they are caused by stress or trauma. i really, really do not want these hellish episodes to come back, but this break up is just the thing that could make that happen. i'm scared. i do NOT need such a disrupting thing in my life again when i am already having to deal with the disruption of this break up. i sit here day after day, and i want to not care what he is doing. i want to forget him and all the pain he's caused. but i can't help but wonder if he is out partying with friends, or already with a new girl, as if i never existed. i don't want to have seizures again. and i want to be able to breathe easily. i am one hell of a strong woman, and i know i will survive this. it's just so, so hard. Link to comment
dali Posted July 17, 2011 Share Posted July 17, 2011 Solder on.... It's all you can do. About the panic attack what anti depressants are on you on? Could be side effects. Link to comment
wicked6018 Posted July 17, 2011 Author Share Posted July 17, 2011 i'm on lexapro. i've taken it in the past and never had a problem. Link to comment
thejigsup Posted July 17, 2011 Share Posted July 17, 2011 You just had a panic attack trigger. They can hit you at the darndest moments. Please don't start avoiding things because of this, it only makes it worse. Is there a professional you can talk to near you? Sometime a combination of meds and CBT(Cogniitive behavioral therapy) works much better than meds alone. Link to comment
wicked6018 Posted July 17, 2011 Author Share Posted July 17, 2011 i'm hoping that i won't have to talk to a professional. it's so expensive. i have so much time on my hands right now; i'm hoping that when college classes start in about a month and a half that the busy work of school will help me. i REALLY hope. i'm so worried that i won't be able to concentrate. it's my last year of school. i was hoping that it would be great and then i would be getting married next summer. crazy how drastically and suddenly my plans changed. Link to comment
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