feelings coming back.

[MissSMcc]

its been 5 months since my break up. was warned many people hit a 5 month wall, thought nah won't happen to me. well.... maybe it's because i found the stuff he left behind, i don't know. i just miss him. well, i think i miss him, or maybe its just the company i miss, i don't know. he wasn't who i thought so i cant really say i miss him as such. but he was such a huge part of my life, and as much as i have tried to fill the space, how can you really do that? am i going to look back when I'm old and grey and remember him? or will it be one of those times that actually didn't matter, wasn't as big as it felt at the time? the finality of it has hit me again, and its really scary. it doesn't matter anyway, there is nothing i can do about it. onwards and upwards i guess.

[Ambiguous X]

Alot of times its like Van Halen and David Lee Roth...it always seems like a great idea them getting back together but as soon as they get together they remember why it can't work.