Why didn't it hurt when I was with him?

[adidas7fire]

I just broke up with my boyfriend of 6 months. When I was talking to him (even though I knew what this conversation was about), I felt just fine, I knew that we were about to break things off because of his moving away and because I would be here... there would be new opportunities for the both of us. Right before I got home, we were joking around and accepted to mutually let things go and remain friends. But now, as I sit here, about to go to bed, tears fill my eyes and my heart is aching so bad; it's like reality just kicked in now and not the time that I was with him. He is still a huge part of my soul and I guess what I'm feeling is a part of it missing. I know that only time heals the heart but how can I go from just fine and friendly to heartbreak city? I don't understand it. If you have ANY encouraging words, please let me know. Anything would help right about now. Thanks.

[rbelle]

I completely understand what u feel, i myself experience the same thing, i fell in love with a married man, we both know that our relationship will not work out, so for short we both agreed to stay friends, and the time were discussing about it, i feel fine with it, but actually there's no single night that i dont cry, until now im still crying about it, it hurts sooo much.

 

I guess the reason why it doesnt hurt that time when i was with him is bcoz, I want him 2 see that im strong and i dont want him 2 worry about me and besides i know our situation and he didnt intend 2 hurt me, and i completely understand that what we decided is for the best of everyone. But in reallity my heart is bleeding coz his my life not just a part of me.

 

As for u, maybe it doest hurt that time coz u knew that he didnt do anything wrong 2 end ur relationship(correct me if im wrong), its just that he just need to move away(maybe bcoz of his family is also moving away or for what so ever reason, since u didnt state why he is moving away), and also u said that u knew that u were about to break things off bcoz of this, so it means u already accepted this 2 ur self, but then the truth is always there, u loved him, his a part of ur heart and soul, no one can deny that.

 

Well just think that its not the end, his not married(not like mine ), and maybe ur path will crossed again and in the end its u and him after all. It might work for u to feel better. Im thinking of suggesting u about long distance relationship if u still have communication with him, but i know its hard, and maybe it will get things worst, so erase that one, but u can think about it anyway, and always think that there r lots of people who has lots of troubles than u, and ur still lucky about it Hope i helped. Wishing u more happiness.