Aeryn Posted May 22, 2010 Share Posted May 22, 2010 I'm not sure which forum section I should put this in, but I'm thinking "Personal Growth," since it is something I would like to try to 'fix' if possible. This is a problem I have noticed in me for a while, but it seems to be getting worse as I get older. I don't really like it all that much. The problem I fall so quickly, and so deeply. I'm prone to the whole 'love at first sight' thing, I won't deny it. I will like a person and chase them like no other, and then when I finally win them over I am very nonchalant and indifferent towards them. I would say that, on average, I no longer 'desire' 98% of the men after I "catch" them. A few scenarios: Back in January I met a guy at my University, whom I became really attracted to right off the bat. I flirted with him hardcore. I wanted him. After a couple of months, he finally asked me out on a date. After that, I had no interest in him. I won him - thus, the fun was over for me. Around the same time, I was also crushing on another guy. I told him and nothing came from it right then, but we still continued talking. Even up until a few weeks ago, I still periodically told him that I had feelings for him. Back in late April/early May he revealed that he liked me, too, and he wanted to give things a try. Even though I had just days before that told him that I still liked him, after he told me this I couldn't help but to tell him that I wasn't interested in him that way. Why? I finally won him over, and then I had no desire to be with him at all. Now, I'm having the problem again. I have liked this other guy since late December-ish. He is the one, of all these stories I'm telling right now, that I liked the most. I still do like him a lot. In fact, perhaps I could even love him (someday...) He really is an amazing guy, and he is always on my mind. I have liked him for several months now. Within these past few days, it was revealed that he had the same feelings towards me. I should be flattered, and I should feel like we should/could grow closer since we feel the same towards each other... But that's not the case. I feel that, since he has admitted it, I am over it. I mean, I still like him... but I just don't see the point in trying anymore. I'm kind of ready to move on to the next target, though I still have strong feelings for him. What's wrong with me? Why do I like these men so much, but then completely rid of them when I finally catch them and get them under my wing? Also, another problem of mine that you probably noticed from the story: I can never like just one person at a time. I always seem to like 2-5 people at one time. I have been this way for as long as I can remember; though, like I said, it's progressively getting worse as I get older, I think. There have only been two people who were really able to catch my heart. I have been in five relationships, but only two of them really caught me. Link to comment
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