emotionoly stressed

[lil_baby_girl]

okay I need some help. on September 11. 2009 my cousins wife past away. She was like a big sister to me. i was really close to her and I'm still really close to my cousin as well. on September 18th 2009 i had my son 9lbs 6 oz, I miss my "sister" but I'm scarred to show sadness because i don't want my family to think that I'm having the baby blues or postpartum depression, my son also has to spend the first 5 days of he's life in the NICU for heath reasons, i was not able to go to the funeral because it was the same day my son came home. I'm having a hard time with my hormones trying to get back to normal, my son being home and my "sister" passing away. if anyone can help me on what i should do please do. i dont want to stress to much about it cause i am nursing and dont want to dry up.

[Seraphim]

I am sorry about your "sister". Congrats on your son!! Since you recently had him can you not go back to the hospital and ask to talk with the social worker on staff or chaplain and explain your unhappiness?

[lil_baby_girl]

no i cant go back and talk to somone