magicangel

Yesterday all I wanted was for u to get a hold of me just so I could ignore u or feel like u care, but u didn't and u won't and each passing day I am becoming ok with that u sAid time and time again I would always be urs ha what a joke I'm finally finding myself and yes I have weak moments but no longer do I care if I ever see u, looking back on things u never did a thing for me u were a crappy bf the crappiest I ever had and believe me when I say I've dated quit a few crappy men u were the worst, I loved u tho but I felt sorry for u but now I know why everyone runs from u even ur mother cuz u r a leach u suck the life out of all that come near u, one day Ull sit back and remember the girl that did everything for u financially and emotionally and fora moment u will have regrets, I dnt desire nothing bad to come to u, u already have a nonexistent sort of life, ur sad and u know what I didn't lose u and u didn't throw me away u lost me and gave up on a person who would of laid down and died for u, 7days NC and u know what u probably haven't even noticed, its cool tho one day u will

Seven days NC sighh the last thing u sAid to me was no maam, I wonder do u miss me or think of me probably not everyday I miss u more altho somedays I'm very angry at u, but I come to terms that we are over

A complete week sighhhh I miss u heard u and ur flavor of the month broke up after what less than two weeks ha couldnt help but laugh my ass off, Noone will ever know ulike i do but I wonder now is she the ex Ull miss rugby efff it not my beeswax

Efffff u coward ur with her yet can't leave me alone hiw sad

After three Days the urge to call u overcame everything i knew i shouldnt and still idid, theres a sadness in ur voice a sort of emptiness i wish i could confort u but u dnt want me, u told me u loved me Miss me need me and yet, we ended up arguing i guess its for the Best i was stuck holding on Because i could not forgive u, but im going to try now ur not bad ur broken, i wanted to help u save u but u cant help a person who doesent want help, and noone can save u from Urself, u hurt me so bad but I forgive u, its time for me to move fwd u r selfish and have no ambition and are content laying in bed all day everyday online looking for dumb girls to pay ur way, i was so stupid i did everything for u cuz i loved u beyond words now i know every i love u, u said to me was a crock but its cool take care

So today has been day three of no calling u or texting u, i miss u like crazy but u are no good for me, even After u said it was over u still call pvt and sent a pointless effing text and for what?? Just to mess with my head u dnt even like me, u made that clear when u said i was annoying af ha and still i want u to Miss me what an idiot i am

Last Night i got Two private calls i knew it was u, and im proud to say i didnt pick up, as much as i wanted to text or call now i can say theres no point regardless of everything i dnt wanna feel this pain again and have to start the healing process all over that would truly be foolish, i used to hope ud return to me, but for what? To use me some more? To dgrade me put me down insult me? Nah i miss u but im learning to love me, u should do the same then maybe Next time someone Loves u and gives u will cherish and appreciate

I wonder if it was all worth it?? Do u think of me, probably not i know i lost u Long before u chose to walk away, i guess i deserved it kind of but then again u used me took from me lied to me promised u knew ud never do, but oh well thats life u live u hurt, i wish it was as easy for me as it was for u, the difference tho between u and I is id never dispose of a person as tho They were garbage, the last things u said to me were cruel then again u always knew how to RIP me apart emotionally, funny last Night i slept well, i guess thanks for cutting me off u my dear r the best thing i never had ha

I'm in a sort of shock u r ridiculouswhy'd u even ask me back for, I dnt think u even know why u do the dumb things u do, and its sad that I love u, I made bad choices but u, u knew exactly how to hurt me and continue to do so but amazingly today I dnt feel too bad ha weird huh, as psychotic pathetic and desperate as I acted I am finally finding my self worth, u dnt deserve me u deserve someone exactly like u and I hope u find her soon

Sometimes the answers we are looking for r not the ones we get, but in a strange way eyeopeners, i dnt feel sorry for myself at all anymore cuz what i felt was pure one day u will remember me be it from a song a fragrance or just something simple someone says and u will feel a bit of pain for the fool who loved u with no limits, im not afraid of tomorro anymore

I know u, I know who u r and what ur about and still I let u in my effing head but no more, u dnt care about me ur a selfish excuse for exisistance, I thought I was pathetic but no ur the pathetic one, after today I won't cry for u I won't chase u I won't let u continue to destroy and bring me down u r so heartless I hope u never feel how u made me feel, tho I must thank u because of u noone will ever hurt me again, I will try not to come here anymore u dnt deserve my words thoughts tears,

I'm so confused u dnt want me of that im certain but u won't let me go what do u want seriously, stop with the head games

Its been three days since we brokeup and i spoke to him today, he told me to eff off so I'm gna try and do that Day 1 NC, about an hr after got three back to back pvt calls, hmm like I dnt know who it was

My heart hurts so much u sucked every good beautiful thing out of my life, ur a user and even now u say I didn't save ur life with the amount of Money I gave wasent enough to save u ha u finally told me to off, glad u grew some balls and finally made a desicion no more wondering how u feel

Today was the very first day no contact it was hard but I did it, I wonder if u thought of me probably not, enjoy ur lil websites, I was a fool such a fool u used me and betray me yes I lied but I owned up the more I look at the situation the more I start to see I'm worth so much more than u gave me credit for.