Day 2
This will be the 4th time I've tried NC w/ her. Ever other time she contacted me and we hooked up. I told her this time I was serious. Last time I ignored her text she did a drive by at my house adn started blowing up the email. I gave in and we talked all week until yesterday. I told her it was too painful now to see her. So, I'll have to be much firmer this time. I might see her on the soccer fields today. I'll have to pretend she is an acquaintance if I see her. She wants to be w/ me. (she wants me to tell her husband, or she wants me to get her pregnant - yes, kind of psycho, but I love her
I'm not going to do that though. She is in a bad marriage just like me. But, no I left 4 weeks ago. She hasn't yet. She gets no more Ryan unless she does. I get that she's scared. I just need to heal and grow. I need to be strong for my own path I have to walk through. I wish she was walking through it w/ me.
Anyway, I'm going to use this site. Maybe be able to help others soon. I'm tired of wearing my friends out. I'm done talking about it w /them.
Last night went out w/ an old friend. Been continuing w/ the gym. I want my faith in God to grow.
Have a good day everyone,
Ryan