823freckles

Day 21: Well, it's day 60 since the break-up. Sad. And now day 21 since last contact. I miss him terribly every single day, but I have had no intention to contact him until quite a bit more time had passed since break-up. But today I'm angry. Really, really angry. And I want to rage at him. It would be incredibly stupid, but he kinda deserves it for his behavior post break-up. I know it won't help in the long run though...though really, I think that is only because I still want him back. Sigh. Either way, talk me out of it!

You horrible, horrible man. You wanna tell a lie to yourself and everyone else as the story of our relationship? F**K YOU. Go ahead, be the victim. Make it all my fault. See where it gets you. You SON OF A B**CH.

I miss you, my honey baer. I miss you so much. Don't you miss me at all? Have you forgotten all the good times?

I don't understand why you blocked me, and it is killing me. Don't you care at all about me anymore? Where did that love go? Please tell me some is still there. Please hold on to it. I'm working so hard on me. Let it matter to you. Please. Come back to me. Not now. But soon. I love you.

Can I have one last contact and then go NC? Please?