mrEddie

SHe called me back 3 am, today. I dont know why , she gave me a vibe that she was sorry , etc or scared that i am leaving for good. I guess women or people dont really know that they are wrong until what they have really leaves. She told me, that she never screwed anyone but me during our relationship. So I asked her, " You dumped me on thursday so i guess in your head you werent with me" So does that mean you cheated? or scrwed around? She took a second , and answered no I didnt, i didnt even touch him or kiss him etc... She went on about how bad i treated her, but for some reason i think she said all of that to try to turn the guilt over to me again. So i told her that no matter what she says it doesnt mean jack to me. I loved you and I will always, no matter what you do to me but from what i say that night, you really lost all my trust and hope. She went on about getting her things back, and I asked her " why are you calling anyways at 3 am" She said I wanted to tell you my period hasnt come yet", I said well go get it check if so go get an abortion like you did before. Dont tell me about it , tell your new boy about it. She replied " he isint my boy, we are just friends etc.... " Then she hung up. Pls give me some in sight or advice on why the heck she called back and acted all nice and stuff when the past week she wouldnt even answer my calls. I dont know why, is she feeling bad? or she feels that i am leaving her now. Thanks Edmond

Hello Intro My name is Edmond and I am 21. I know I may not have the experience and wisdom that most of you users have on this site but I believe everyone at anyone age is vunerbable to hurt and pain and loss. My Situation. I have been with my girlfriend ( Anna ) which is my ex now for 2 years. She recently ended our lovely relationship last thursday. Out of now where, suddenly she gave me a call that night asking me not to call her anymore. My Story. I met her on May 5th 2 years ago. First time I saw her I said to myself "She is the most beautiful thing I have seen in my life" and she still is. I said to god, " god damm, give me a chance with this girl I will treat her like a princess and never take her for granted" The next day , some how I got her to hold my hand and our story began. The Relationship. I was infactuated with her, and she was too. She would do anything for me and I would do the same too. Her smile would melt me, her touch would tickle my heart and her voice would paralyze me. I couldnt think of another women that could possibly give me the sense of completion as well as she could. 8 months went by, sex was great, no fights no problems. I couldnt imagine a better relationship, I was in heaven. Her parents loved me, her sister loved me ,her brother was my best " little bro" He looked up to me and always wanted to come along with us. Her parents are wonderfull people , they always invited me to dinner, golfing and other gatherings they had. I am multi talented and a handy dude so I know a little of everything. So they always asked me to help them out , fixing this , fixing the computer, etc. Not to mention they lived on the other end of the city which is about 30 Kms away. Takes me about 25 mins to get to them. THey had 2 cars, and her sister always took it out leaving her or her parents stranded. I would always offer them a ride, to anywhere. This became a weekly rountine , every weekend I would most likley help them out close the store and drive her mother home. Things were great, honestly really good. Her parents are korean and in the korean tradition there childern are not really allowed to date. And if they did they would surely never take their boyfriend home etc. So I was lucky and very lucky that her parents tottaly accepted me. I bought her lots of stuff, everything while I still had my business. Unfortunately my busines went bankrupt and I was also financially depleted. She was generously to pay for everything for about 8 months until I found a job. I mean she payed for all the meals, movies, anything and everything we did she paid for it. I remember her saying to me " hunny, even though I make 6 dollars /hr I dont mind paying for you if you really need it" I was so compelled by her when she said it. Not to metion I am 3 yrs older than she is. When we hit 1 yr in our relationship, she was pregnant with my baby. I really wanted to keep it , but she wanted to get an abortion csaue she knew we wouldnt have the ablilty of raising the child. So we got an abortion. We started getting small fights, over guys around her or girls around me. So we both agreed to keep a distance with opposite sexes. I was very busy for a while after I got my job, for about 2 weeks we didnt see each other, and suddenly I found out she was cheating. She was cheating with this guy that lived in korea, that had a crush on her when her was still in Canada. They talked over the phone etc, even had phone sex. I was so hurt by this , and I lost most of my trust in her but I put myself to blame. I guess if I i given her more attention she wouldnt have done what she did. I forgave her and she agreed on not to contact him anymore. This also triggerd her sister to hate my guts, I dont know why because apparently the other guy was her best friend. So her sister tried to break us up ever since. Everything went good, we were getting close to 2 yrs and things were going well. She took me to her grad photos and we took lovely pictures, and we had a very good time. We went to Victoria BC for her Birthday present, and also Seattle Washington for our 1 and half yr anniversary. Love was strong , at least I thought so. After 1 and half yrs, she started becoming very busy with school, entering university. She always wanted more space, and time etc. She told me she needed to get high grades to get in and she was never satisfied with her marks when she got 7 As and 1 B. I didnt understand her, and I was mad and I thought she didnt appreciate me. Finally, last thursday she called me and asked for a break up. I thought she was joking so I called her back on monday , finding out from her brother that she tottaly trashed everything i gave her. I was shocked so I called her immidiately. She was with her friends or her sister , i think. She replied with a loud " F***OFF" I dont want you anymore, I dont like you and leave me alone. She hung up..... I was very shocked and still couldnt believe what had happened. The next day I went to her school with flowers in my hand. I never thought of myself running in the hallway trying to ask her to forgive whatever the heck I have done to make her leave. More or so , I needed closure. She told me she just doenst like me anymore and that I am wasting her time and I am not the person she wants to be with. I followed her everywhere during lunch, but she acted like a total different person. The way she looked at me with the corner of her eyes, the way she spoke and seemd so annoyed of me, was totally difffernet to the Anna I knew just a week ago. IT was a total nightmare. So she went to class and I left. After I got home I received a call from the school constable telling me that she complained that i was disturbing her. The cop told me to give her some time etc.. That night she dropped of the cell phone i lent her. She didnt even bother to stop and talk to me. So I kept calling her only to find all my calls rejected. Her sister then called me , telling me to f*** off , etc, I was very stunned by this. I could believe this was happening. So i took the cell and went through everything to find clues what was going on. She deleted everything in the phone, except for the archive section which was password protected. There I found a message to a guy, " call me tomorrow I am going to sleep now" , when I saw that message my heart stoped for a beat. I knew something was going on, but I wasnt sure. I gave the number a call and I talked to the guy. Apparently they met 1 week ago, on monday. ( keep in mind she dumped me on thursday. ) They were old friends, and they exchanged numbers, he said there is tottaly nothing between them etc. Monday But , I told him to help me out and my situation etc. I think he used it against me instead. They ended up talking for a couple of hrs every night. Tuesday So I called Anna again, and finally she told me that they had nothing and that she is breking up becasue she didnt like me , and not becasuse of him etc. She said she would never see him or even go out with him. Wednesday I tired so hard writing her emails telling her if she break up our 2 yr realtionship would come to a waste etc, I apologized that i wasnt giving her enough attention or getting mad over little things etc. She never responded. Valentines Feb 14, 2004 She emailed me telling me to leave her alone and she was busy today. I called ,and her dad picked up telling me " Eddie I dont know what is happening between you both but u guys should talk. Anna doenst want to talk to you right now, ok? Sorry , bye " After I heard that I stoped calling. Today Feb 16th , 2004 I had a feeling that they would go out or something, so I stoped a block away from the guys house. ( i found out where he lived from annas friends ) Apparenltly he did not have a car. I was there from 6 - 7, and at 6:58 I saw something that totally broke my heart. Her car rolled by, and it took 5 mins for the guy to get out of the car. I was much pain i couldnt even explain. Although this just happened a few hours ago, i am still in agony. I suddenly had so many flash backs in my head of her telling me how much she loved me, flash backs of her smiling , having fun, eating, going out, etc... and then he got of the car, my life at that momment came to an end. So i followed her car for 2 mins and i gave her a call. She was shocked that I knew, and she started to find reasons to blame me for what she did. She told me they didnt even kiss or touch, but some how knowing her, I didnt believe a thing that came out of her mouth. I told her I am going to move on now, becasue she has lied to me and I ccanot trust what ever she will do. I said I love her but she had to end this wonderfull realtionship. I hung up......... I am a man, and I cried and screamed why driving home. When I got home she called me again, asking for her belongings back. Apparenltly when i called her a on the day before , she told me to trash everything but now she wants it back. I said go ahead pick it up from my mother. She called again, at 10pm. I didnt pick up....... 12:31AM now its 12;31 , and I am writing this, hoping to find someone here to realate to this, or give me some advice. Why did she call back? Is she scared that i meant what i said this time about leaving? Is it becasuse she now is feeling that, I am going for good? Or is it becasue women want what they cant have? I dont know I am confused , pls anyone out there give me some feed back. I am very sad at the momment, my life is so numb and grey. Life just isint the same anymore, without her in my life. I am nothing without Anna. I really loved her and she is my first love. Even though she isint my first GF. I really love this women to the point I would give my life for her. I had so much, planned. I know I am not the best looking richest smartest dude but, I have a big heart. And it was hers to keep. There isint words to explain how I feel I guess, other than I am just starring at the screen and venting it out on you fellow readers. I hope one day I could write a docuementary on realtionships like these, a tribute to all the people who have been hurt. I am after all a film student , so if anyone has anyideas in the future throw it my way.Or if any of you want to help out, thank you all for reading