Sea Of Sorrow

I always hear about this confidence thing. Whatever it is, I don't have it, have never had it, and probably never will have it. Without it is there any hope?

I just joined. I would appreciate any advice. Im 17, 18 in a few months, and a senior in High School. Im your typical shy guy. I have never had a girlfriend or a date ever. And if things keep going the way they are I will probably never have one. Im a virgin, never kissed, etc. Im not an acctractive guy by any means but I do have some good points. Im somewhat smart, funny, (so im told) a good listener, and I have a great sense of humor. I have friends and they have girlfriends or at least dates and its getting harder and harder for me to explain why I never have either. I don't know why. It just doesnt happen for me. Im the romantic type though Ive never experienced any romance. I would love to make someone happy. I spend a lot of time thinking about it and its beginning to make me crazy. I try to keep it out of my mind but it doesnt work. There is nothing I want more in life than love. Im always thinking about it, and I can't help but dwell on it. I know love is the most important thing. When I graduate HS Im not going to college. I have enlisted in the Army and im going to basic training in June. I will be training as an Infantryman. I love my country, and she loves me back. I would give my life for my country and all the people who have something to live for. Im a very patroitic guy, and ive always been. Thats just me. My family has a military history and its just our job. Me being in the military might make things more complicated if I ever do find a relationship but this is my calling and I can't abandon it. Enough about that. If I ever do get in the position to have a relationship how do I explain to her that I have never even kissed, still a virgin, etc? This is my biggest question.