H everyone,
Im your typical teenager who only has acquiantances and no friends...no boyfriend.. nothing. im not saying that it's important for an 18 year old to have a boyfriend, but it will be nice. i guess shyness is to blame or insecurity, but im trying will all my might to overcome it. i went online to get tips but nothing seems to work. what i don't understand is that none of my bros. and sis. have this problem. as a matter of fact they were popular in high school. am i a mutant? lol. i've been so caught up with worrying about my shyness that i know everything about the disorder. i know that it is inherited and can cause physical illness down the road. if thats the case then why were none of my sibilings shy? this is so annoying. i need help/advice so i can have a normal and fun social life. my typical weekend is as follows: sitting around listening to music, yelling at my stepsisters and brother, cleaning the house, doing homework (if any) and lastly listening to my granny yelling at me to "do right". sometimes i don't know what she is talking about. she says, " candace, you need to associate with people and stop being to bashful." What has she been thinking i've been doing this whole time? hiding in my closet? all this is fustrating. she's not making it any better for me. actually she's making it worse. she calls every night practically yelping in my ear to "get out". one time she came to my house to confront me about my social problems while i was cleaning the kitchen. them she made me play a piece on the piano. i felt like screaming.
sometimes at school i get so angry that i begin to cry, i dont want to go to class or do anything. the loneliness really bothers me. i mean, i talk to people and hang around them, but they seem distant and uninterested. i just don't know what to do. thanks for listening
