Clueless90

B*****d I hate you, I wasted 2 years on you, put myself through hell to support you, be the best I could be for you, so many times when things got tough I was there even when at times when I didn't want to be but I did it because I loved and cared for you. When things got tough, you however walked away, the amount of lies you told. I would have rather been told the truth than comforted by lies of a chance one day. I hate you and your **** new gf, you both deserve each other. I now realize you never deserved me and maybe you knew that deep down, well now you can spend your life with what you deserve. I hope you're miserable and I know one day it will hit you, damn I f****d up. I'm moving on whilst you choose not to deal with how you're feeling. I got a head start and once I'm healed and you're starting to feel the pain, I can laugh and keep walking and leave you in the dust. It's what you deserve. If you ever even cared about me (you probably didn't, anything from your mouth are lies) you would keep away and never think for a second I would take you back after the way you treated me. A*****e.

Thank you for this, I totally agree. Sometimes you just gotta let go and hope for the best does it mean he is over me if say he dates other people now or sleeps with others? I'm curious to get a guy's perspective?

NC since today. I called him up and we had a good heart to heart. I explained keeping in contact and still seeing each other was hurting me and that after this call it might be best to stop seeing each other, hanging out and calling/speaking to one another. He said he wishes we were older at a time where we are both ready to settle down and says that he knows one day we will be together again which melted my heart but in the meantime I said I need NC for me. I'm crying my eyes out as I type this and hopefully soon I can just heal and be happy again and when the time is right in the future for us it will be so much better the second time around?