tonyintexas

I'm off this thread for the time-being. Yesterday the ex asked me to come back home and said she wanted to work on our relationship. I'm not moving back in with her but I did agree to work on the relationship. I'm not putting any expectations on what is going to happen, but am hopeful that things work out. Best of luck to all, I'll be posting on different on different threads now.

Day 2 But maybe this should be day 1 again. Last night, I called to tell my daughter goodnight and then had to speak to the ex about picking her up today after school. She was obviously frustrated about something and chose to take it out on me. She told me I needed to come pick the rest of my stuff up right away. I'm staying at my sister's house temporarily, so I reminded her of that and told her there was just no room and she'd have to wait till I get my own place. We hung up and I began to cry because she was so mean to me...I couldn't believe how cold she could be. After a few minutes, she calls back nearly in tears and apologizes for being cold, she was upset because she got into an argument with the neighbor about the dogs and decided to take it out on me. I told her an apology wasn't necessary, thats just how things were and she again apologized, then asked me to come over. Ha! One minute she's telling me to pick up my * * * * , the next she wants me to visit her. So I told her that it wouldn't be a good idea for me to go over and then we hung up, but not before I agreed to go over today (while she's not there) to do a couple of quick chores with the lawn. We both are responsible for the house (we're leasing) and I don't want a huge bill when the lease is up and the lawn isn't maintained so I agreed. The hardest thing is that I can't go completely NC because of our child, and we both are using the times we have to communicate to talk about other things. Its not just her its me too and I need to stop.

ok...so on day 1 (I just posted this morning)...she texts me and asks me to help her by tutoring her in math (I have a degree in that subject). She most likely is trying to study for a college entrance exam, which I've encouraged her to go back to school for several years now. So, I responded by telling her "I can't spend any time with you...It's not easy." and she responded with "Fine" which as we all know in women-speak its not fine. I should have ended there but felt a need to justify myself so I said "you know too that it wouldn't be a good idea" and she responded with "whatever" So now I'm sitting here upset that she's angry that I won't help her out...but at the same time ...this isn't my doing. If I spend time with her I'll just continue to have mixed signals from her that will continue to drag me through agony. I don't know why I even responded to her except that its out of habit and to try to be firm with her but I didn't do as good of a job at being firm. I honestly feel like I owe her a better explanation...but will not do it...I am going to drop it right now.

Day 1 It's been a little over 2 weeks since she broke up with me..I tried no contact last week but we both violated it over and over again until finally this weekend was the worst with her leaving me a drunk voicemail and then us having a conversation Sunday evening that led to kissing and expressing how much we missed each other. Its too confusing for me, so I'm going to give it a much better effort this time around. Even though I want to contact her ...today I'm not going to.

Every day I wake up thinking of you..not of how much pain I'm in but certain little things I miss about you. Then I wonder if you're thinking of those things too. It's aggravating to do that to myself and I just want it to stop.