thisisnotdave

Dear ___, Remember how we talked about living each day like it was our last? I think this is me enacting that right now. I honestly don’t know what I want out of sending you this letter. But here it goes. After our break up, I was trying to search for answers. I’ve talked to more people than I can count and I’ve taken more advice than I would ever imagine. I feel like I’ve learned more about myself post break up than I have during our relationship. In that sense, I’ve come to terms that this break up was necessary. I can now confidently say that I will be okay with or without you but I will be lying if I said that I wouldn’t want us to try again in the future. I feel like we (I) didn’t get closure. Maybe this letter can serve that purpose. I do miss you as a person and as a friend. Sincerely, Dave

This is how I feel too. I'm on day 38 though.

DAY 35 Almost broke NC today. I was dead set on it actually. But I didn't.

Day 34 Not much to say. I'm thinking about contacting her tomorrow evening.

I'll let you know how it goes when I contact her. My smarter half is telling me that I will regret it, but maybe it's something I have to learn on my own!

I'm sad and surprised she hasn't contacted me yet. She broke up with me because she wanted space. Well, I guess she's getting it! Haha. I want to contact her in a few days.