REGUY

Well... We closed that deal Ive been telling you about. Big paycheck coming for me, and we were supposed to go on a trip. I knew you were stressed and wanted to get away but I cant tell you this because it wont matter.... You ignored every text about everything I had planned for your birthday. IDK why you hate me so much. I never hit you, yelled at you. You called it fighting but I saw it as passionate about you. O well, probably better this money for into savings for the next girl. Blows but... owell. You must think your so cool to have an older guy chasing you. Must feel good, I remember when we started talking you telling me this guys ignoring you was driving you crazy and thats probably what I should have done. I just didnt want to play games, I thought I could just be up front with you. You must think im needy, I dont really need you I just wanted you by my side. O well

I hate you so much for not caring about my feelings. Your off with your friends enjoying your time and im here crying adn loosing my mind. I get that you weren't ready but you dont get to choose when love comes into your life. I want nothing more than for you to come and telll me you made a mistake, i deserve to be wanted. I treatd you so damn good.... And i hate that you have me blaming myself... " Its because i got out of shape and stopped going to the gym'.." its because I got to needy and turned you off"... the fact of the matter is that you dont deserve how i wanted to be to you.... Then you make me question that and say " she does but it wasnt the right time"... YOU DONT>.>>>> And even if I was to write all this to you, you would ignore it and make me feel dumb.... Where is the guy that was all smiles.. So positive about life

I wish you would have stayed. You have such a fear of people leaving you and I never would have. Sorry to make it seem like I would. I think about you all day baby. I start to get mad that you wont even respond to my text and that you dont know how much I miss you. Im sure your with somebody else by now and think he's ten times more fun than all this drama. I hope he treats you well, but sometimes I kinda dont so you can see what I wanted to give to you. I miss you.

I miss seeing your text during the day>> I miss you so much. I miss planning what we're doing when we get off work. WHat did you do to me. I miss you so much.

What I would do to have you back in my arms. I know I pushed you away right after the break up and the guy you saw couldnt have been attractive, i wish you would give it another shot because I think we could work.

I wish you knew how good you had it. I loved you so much and you threw everything back in my face like i was nothing. And now that you ignore me everyday for the past 3 god damn weeks makes me see that I did judge you right. Your birthday is tomorrow and I was supposed to be with you.. Hold you. I wake up every day thinking about you and spent every day trying to make you happy and the least you could do is not be so cold and care about me alittle.

So I have been sitting and thinking about my break up ( where together for around 4 months ) and split now 2.5 weeks. I have found that I was the rebound guy to a somewhat of a mutual friend. He and I never really hung out but shared a friend group. So we got together and completely hit it off and spent every single day together. I was amazing to her she saw it and completely fell for me. And i fell for her more than anything. So fast forward a couple months and i told one of her friends that we had been together and she completely flipped and dumped me. I begged and told her how she broke my heart for the first time etc, and we were together after a week. I see know that this is the step of taking me back out of pitty So we were good for about a week and then back to * * * * . 2.5 weeks ago she ditches me again because of the issues we had. Her friend tells me that she still cares about me but she is so concerned about her ex fighting out she dated one of his "friends" ( dudes a * * * * head and not really someone i considder a friend) and never talked to her again. So in the past couple weeks a went back to what I knew would work adn started trying to use logic ( i treated you great, we can make this work, i showed you how to be treated ) etc. And she is being so cold and not moving at all. In the begnning of the breakup I was texting all day and crying etc... now its a coupld text every over day to a couple days. Where I want the response is, just because she is being cold and not saying anything is she not even thinking about me?? We spent every day together, how can you just not think about something or somebody when it is consuming my how day.... I have a business to run and I cant keep thinking about this damn 4 month relationship with a 21 year girl..( im 25 ).... Ive been in a 5 years realtionship.. Breakup didnt bother me... 1.5 relationship, didnt bother me... this stupid 4 month relationship is killing me. What do I do besides do nothing and NC.