Day 2:
We broke up on June 5. I would usually be able to make it through the entire day, but I'd always end up contacting him before night. Then eventually I could go two days. But never longer than that. I've now made the decision to delete him from my life (on social networking sites, etc.) He no longer has access to what I am up to. I last contacted him on Friday morning, so it has been two days. I'm not doing well. I feel like I'm okay sometimes and then it hits me again and I get that sinking feeling in my chest. I can at least sleep now, but I'm haunted by dreams of us being happy and back to normal again, or otherwise getting back together. Then I wake up and realize that never seeing him again is a very high possibility. I know I did the right thing in cutting him out despite him wanting to be friends eventually, but now I feel like it will be hard to reach him after the 30 days if I choose to contact him...
I can't do this. I have to but I can't. It hurts so much and he's okay with it? I can't stand the thought of him with someone else and time passing scares me like nothing else. I haven't seen him in 2 weeks... the longest time apart yet.