Challenge Accepted - I'm on Day 2 of not contacting the man I had an emotional affair with.
It hurts still, because although it was wrong of me to be involved with him, he made me feel very happy. I used to spend my whole day with a huge grin on my face because of him.
But then he ended it because he didn't think he'd ever be my first choice, which was an understandable thing to do, and then started treating me like I'd done something wrong. I'd been understanding about him ending it, and tried to remain friends afterwards which he said he wanted too, but then he started pushing me away and doing little malicious things, nothing I could call him on. I decided that trying to stay in touch and getting treated that way was hurting far more than not being in touch at all, so I've deleted his number and the apps we were using to chat via, and blocked the two websites we were talking on.
It's shown me that I need to look at the problems in my relationship, rather than running to someone else to make me temporarily happy. So that's what I'm doing. And in a way I'm glad he's made it easier for me to cut contact by being such a * * * * about it, despite it being his choice - if he'd stuck around, I would have kept using it as an excuse to not look at my real problems.
I still have strong feelings for him. I was contemplating leaving my boyfriend for him, though I never expressed that to him because I didn't want to end up letting him down. It's hard to go from talking to him constantly, to not at all.