tingkong

Day one got a call from the ex confirming that we wouldn't ever get back together and we couldn't ever be friends again. I need to move on big time and today is the first day of the rest of my life. I wish her well and hope to be a great man someday.

I love you and think that you’re wonderful, kind, sexy and funny. Even if you’re too angry at me not to forgive me. I love that part of you too. I lie to myself saying that I’m over you but the truth is that I’ll always love you and always care about you, Nina, your brothers, your mom and step dad even though I don’t know them. I’m sorry I hurt you, I make mistakes like we all do. If you can let it go and love me for me even though I’m an idiot sometimes call me. I only have kindness to offer you because you’re special to me and always will be.

I made it through a really hard day without you. Still miss you and nina a bunch. I wish I could go to the zoo with you guys, thats what I miss the most. love ya

I haven't talked or sent you a message in 12 days. I really hope that its gets better. Today is terrible. I miss you like crazy. I just want you to know that i care about you so much and I hope that you're doing ok.

So you get to leave for las vegas today and I was supposed to go with you. I can't go because you told me that I would just be another person there no different then anyone else at the wedding. That hurt me so bad because you'll never be just another person to me. you meant a lot to me and I'll always care about you. Why does it have to be so hard? My weekend is going to be miserable but I hope that you have a good time. I miss you.

I still can't go to the movie theater and I forgot my phone at a restaurant. I never forget things. I miss you so much even when I think that you're off my mind you creep back in. I love you and I hope you're doing well. Make sure you call me if you need me.

Good night, I miss you so stinkin much and I feel guilty sometimes and angry other times. I hope you're doing good.

I hate sundays so much because thats when we'd go to the mall of america and watch a movie and shop around for an hour or so. I miss our conversations and listening about how different you are from me. Whenever I see a silver ford taurus it hurts inside because I think its you.

Day 4 and this is the only way out of this horrible way of living

Good night my love. I hope that whatever happens to you that you're safe and nothing bad is happening to you. I'm sorry that I can't protect you and support you anymore.

I just wish that you knew how to live life in a healthy way instead of being so hard on the poeple you love like your mother and your daughter. Realize that you're insecure and that everyone has faults and makes mistakes. See that people are more good then bad so that you could get out of your own way to be happy instead of the emotional rollercoaster that gets set off by stupid bs things like when I wore kahki shorts to a crappy bar instead of khaki pants.

I just heard that song on the radio and it couldn't be more perfect. I like the end of the song where there is a play on words, 'I'm gonna get you back.'

I miss the person that you were to me and I really want to see you for the drama queen and uncompasionate person that you are but I can't yet because I still love you and I miss you.