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Well its been 2 months since our break up. How in the world does a woman go from being engaged and looking up bridal gowns to sneaking behind a mans back and having who knows what kind of conversations over texts in the middle of the night with another??? Then when we sit down and talk it out swear up and down it was innocent and that you loved me that you just need time to think about us. Then you strung me on for a month. Allowing me to continue to carry on as a father figure to your 2 year old that I had the priveledge of watching her grow for the last 7 months as the only man in her life. Just to yank it all away. I had to leave our home, my fiance, and that precious little girl i considered my daughter. I cant tell you how much you have hurt me!! Now I find out you have already moved on. Its been 5 weeks since we called it off for good. 5 weeks and you already have another man sleeping over! What kind of mother are you! I hate you so much. Yet im scared at the same time! That when this doesnt work out with your new man, or he isnt accepting of your daughter like I was your going to come looking for me. It scares me because i dont know what ill do. right now id like to tell you to hit the road! The thought of him sleeping in my bedroom. Picking up my little girl. and kissing you goodnight is almost enough to break me! Almost! It wont happen. Right now i wish nothing good for you!! How could I? I gave you every part of me, and you took it and gave nothing in return.

I have been doing the no contact thing for 11 days now. I never sent my ex a letter stating we werent to have contact or anything like that. Should I? and what should it say. Like i said its been 11 days by now im hoping she is at least wondering about what i am doing. who knows.