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Day 1 She contacted me online through AIM last night asking me if I want my military doggy tag back and my sweater back. I told her that I have a part of my life to her and I don't want any of it back. I don't think she realizes how much those 2 items mean to me. I even told her you can throw them away if you want. She seemed bitter about everything still. I didn't want to continue to talk to her so I said take care and god bless. I'm here if you need me. I'm hoping she doesn't contact me like that again. I honestly didn't know what to say. I almost completely ignored her. If she contacts me about my stuff again, I might have to ignore her next time. I want to go months NC with her because I want her to at least get a chance to forgive me and get over the negatives things about us. I might end up sending her a friendly but belated birthday card in November. Does that count as breaking NC?
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Day 8 I was at work most of the day. I got off at 9pm. I thought about my ex when I got home. I'm almost certain I'm going to contact her next week.
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Day 7 I had an alright day today. I worked out this afternoon. After that, I went to work and got off around 6pm. Today I did a lot of painting and you know how boring painting gets.. I thought about my ex some more. It seems like at night, I can cope without my ex perfectly fine, but at the same time I miss her dearly. I might contact her next week... I don't know yet. I might just go without contacting her until she contacts me. I'm getting mixed feelings on what I should do.. but after I get back from going out to sea, I might call her. We'll see how things turn out... but if I do call her, there is no way I'll be talking about the breakup. By next week, it will be 1 month of not hearing her voice or knowing what's going on with her.
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Day 6 Not much happened today. I got my tires rotated and I went to work afterwords. I thought about her a lot today before I went to work. Today at work, I had to do a lot of painting and when I was painting I kept on thinking about her. It was kinda depressing but I managed to get through it. Then when I got home, I thought about her once again. I went to the studio to practice choreo. Got my mind off of her for a little bit. Now I'm totally fine. I think about her but I'm not suffering.. my emotions are weird lately. There are times when I miss her so much and there are times when I think about her but I don't really miss her. I've made up my mind that this girl is worth fighting for though. I thought about all of this when I was painting walls for hours.
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Day 5 I started off my day going to the mall and buying some sweats I needed for dance practice tomorrow. I went to the mall with a friend I usually don't go out with. We were out going to places for a good 4 hours and headed back home. He eventually left soon after. Ever since he left, I began to feel lonely. I started to think about my ex a lot. Then I went to a dance studio for 2 hours to practice. When I went back home, I started to think about my ex once again. I'm getting mixed feelings for her. There are times when I really miss her and wonder if she's still trying to get with her rebound or if it didn't work out. There are also times when I think if trying to reconcile with her is really worth it? I really really loved this girl and have not met a girl like her from my previous ex's. I just "hope" things work out by itself.
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I totally know what you mean, but you will eventually start getting used to it and it will be a lot easier moving on to different things rather than thinking about what your ex is doing. I still think about what my ex is doing, but now it isn't as harsh as it was 20 days ago. When I started working out and doing things I used to love such as hip hop dancing, I realized that those are huge ways of getting my mind off my ex. Yeah being alone really sucks.. you have no choice but to start thinking about your ex.
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It's good to hear that you're getting better!
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Day 4 Today I was suppose to go to Los Angeles with a few of my friends but they screwed me so I had to stay in San Diego and not having anything to do!! I was pretty upset. I ended up working out and practicing dance at a nearby studio. I was on facebook today most of the time because I didn't have much to do since my plans totally got diminished. I kept on thinking about my ex again and I started to miss her REALLY BAD which is not good. I almost started to freak out so I decided I needed to go out and do something rather than just stay in my room and think about my ex all day. I went out for a little bit and came home kind of late. I had a buddy from work come over tonight and we just talked about work and other casual stuff. It kept my mind off my ex. Now I'm computer shopping at almost 3 in the morning as we speak lol. My day has been ok at best. I could have been having a great time in Los Angeles though.
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Day 3 After I went to work today, I went to a picnic and had lots of fun. After that, I went to a dance studio and practiced choreography for 3 hours. Then I came back to my apartment and just watched youtube videos. I'm also trying to get to know this one girl I met on facebook and she doesn't live too far away. I wanna be able to hang out with her soon. I thought about my ex a lot today, I won't lie. Whenever I think about her, I always think if she's with her rebound and what they're doing. It sometimes drives me nuts because I have no way of knowing anything at all. Other than that, my day went fine.
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Day 2 After work, I went to the mall today with my friends today. I thought about her here and there. After I went to the mall, I stayed at my friends apartment for a little while. I thought about her a lot. Then I started watching youtube videos and took my mind off of her. Now I'm writing this before I go to sleep. When I think about her, it's mostly due to the fact that I keep on wondering if she's with someone right now. I have absolutely no idea and I have a good feeling she still is talking to her rebound. I'm playing it cool right now and I won't initiate any contact with her. I have a good feeling that she will try to contact me again but I'm trying to not expect it and keep my mind off of her.
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Day 1 Suppose to be day 11 for me, but I broke NC today. My ex texted me a friendly late happy birthday. I just replied back " thank you" and nothing more. I will continue to go NC until I know exactly what she wants. I didn't expect to get a text from her at all. It made me excited to get a text from her because I still want to be with her, but I know I have to play this cool and not make the same mistakes I did before. I now have the ball on my side. I know I can pull this off if I'm patient and think with my mind, not my heart, this time around.
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Good job guys! Keep it up!! Day 10 I still have the cold and I didn't feel all that well today. I thought about my ex quite a bit today. I ended up to the point where I actually started to miss her a lot again. I went to the mall after work today with my friends and I dressed neatly. I noticed that a lot of girls were checking me hehe so I felt great about that ever since I bought new clothes, it's like girls have been checking me out!! I didn't care about looks so much when I was with my ex but now it feels great to look neat and clean hehe ;P so anyways, I stayed at my friends apartment after I went to the mall. I decided to talk to people on facebook, people I don't even know and I started to chat with this one girl who seems really cool. I didn't talk much but I want to get to know her better and maybe go on a casual date with her. The problem is, she lives in the same part of town where my ex lives so yeah.. other than that, my day has gone smoothly except for the fact of me having the cold.. ;D
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Day 9 I caught the cold today so I felt out of it most of the day, especially at work. I still went to dance class which is 20 minutes away from where I live. After dance class, I decided just to eat locally. My ex lives in the same area where my dance class is. So I kept on getting flash backs of my ex as I was driving through the streets. I went to a target just to go looking around to see if I needed anything. Then I went to this place where they sell these really good drinks. I'm not gonna lie, the whole time I was at the part of San Diego where my ex lives, I kept on hoping I would see her it's just this feeling whenever I go to that part of town. I drove back to my friends apartment because a lot of my friends were just hanging out there. I had a great time and didn't think of my ex a lot. When I keep myself occupied, I don't think about my ex a lot, period. Other than me catching the cold today, I had a great day today.
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Day 8 Thank you guys for the greetings! Today was an "ok" day at best. I think I'm starting to catch a fever or some sort of sickness because I'm feeling a little light headed. I went out with my friends pretty much the whole day. Like I said, I felt sick through the whole day so that kinda affected me. We ended up going to the mall my ex always goes to. No lie, I kept on thinking that I was seeing her! I was becoming paranoid!! So from that point on, I was kinda out of it and wasn't very talkative anymore. So later on that night, my ex wanted to be friends with one of my friends on facebook (I posted this problem in another thread on here). Now I'm in my friends apartment just watching TV and facebooking with a few of my other friends here. My day was wasn't all that good
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Day 7 Day 7 was a good day! It was my birthday and a lot of people greeted me a happy birthday!! I felt very happy for most of the day because I was with my friends for the most part. There were times during the day when I thought about her and thought about what "we" would be doing if "we" were still together but I brushed it off and tried to make the best out of my day with my friends. I bought new clothes and they look great on me! I think I'm getting some results from working out finally haha. I'm finally looking a little bit more cut and the shirts I bought look just right for me I talked to my sister and got some advice about my ex because she's been through a similar situation. I'm glad I talked to her because I feel that much more better about trying to move on and focus on myself more. She reunited with her ex about being 2 years apart and she said that during the time she was enjoying herself, her ex contacted her out of nowhere. Hehe success for my sister! So deep down inside, I know I still have hope but I know that my ex won't break me down! I will be the best that I can be and the next time my ex sees me, I guarantee you that she'll see that difference in me!!
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Dude I was tempted so many times, you have no idea lol. I thought about it and if you do contact her, you have to start all over again. It's way too early in the game to break contact.
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Day 6 Today has gotten a lot better. For most of the day, I didn't think about her except for around in the evening. I started to imagine her doing something with her rebound when I'm the one who's suppose to be with her having fun on a friday night. Other than that, I didn't think about her too much. Overall, the day has been good
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Day 5 I didn't really think so much about her while I was at work. The only time I thought about her was when one of my co-workers was explaining one of his ex relationships to me and I started to really think about her a lot. I went to the mall today with a friends and I kept on looking to see if she was there even when she most likely wouldn't be there. Every time I drive around and see a honda accord, I would see if it's hers or not. I can't help these things at all. I'm missing her so much right now especially when I'm alone. One think that makes me feel better is if I see a really pretty looking woman lol. I think I'm gonna approach one and get there number probably this weekend or even tomorrow
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Hey! Day 4 like me!! Hehe we should stick together Everyday I also get this temptation that I want to send my ex an email or text message or even see her facebook, even though she deleted me off he friends list. I just want to say sorry to her every single day, but I know that one time should be enough and I also told her that I will never write her another email again. I hope I get to see her someday again...
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I usually think of my ex A LOT when I wake up. It's really painful and I don't know why my emotions are at it's highest when I wake up.. weird.
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Day 4 I didn't really think of her a lot today because I purposely tried to keep myself busy. When I got home from work, I took a 4 hour nap because I had to work really late last night. After my nap, I went to the movies with my friends. I won't lie, during the movie, I was thinking about the times when I went to the movies with her and pictured myself cuddling and holding her hand. That was the only hard part, other than that, it wasn't too bad. When I got home, I went to do my favorite hobby which is hip hop dancing. It's really the only way I can keep my mind off of her when I'm alone and also working out
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I wonder what it feels like to move on from a person you truly love. I really want to get to know that feeling..
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I made the mistake of looking at her facebook profile through my friends profile. Damnit it's guaranteed she's seeing someone else and she's in total love for this guy. I don't know how the guy feels for her though and I want to know, but I really don't want to know at the same time.. you know?
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Day 3 I saw her facebook profile through my friends profile. I don't feel so well right now because I'm really really thinking about her right now. I hope tomorrow goes a lil bit better for me since I know I'll be keeping myself busy tomorrow. What's making things super worse is the fact that I know she's seeing someone right now and I cannot, absolutely cannot get that thought out of my head right now. I deserve her and I would do anything to fight for her back, he doesn't have the same love I have for her. ARGHH!!
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Day 2 I tried to keep myself very busy today. Although I did admit that I went to look at her youtube profile today. I haven't checked her facebook, even though she deleted me from her friends list, I would still go to her facebook just to see her picture. So far I haven't done that today and I don't plan on it. I can't stay in my room alone anymore because I'll be tempted to do those things so I'm at my buddies apartment right now. I still constantly think about her even how busy I was today.