[i apologize if this goes all over the place...]
I really don't know what to do....I'm having these crazy deep feelings for my childhood best friend. She's 26 and I'm a month away from being 26 (she's about 6 months older than me). We've known each other since we were born (literally). We went to the same church together, went to the same school, even graduated from high school together. After High School we went our separate ways and lost contact with each other until about 2 years ago when we re-established contact. She has a 4 year old child right now (who is such a great kid ).
Since we regained contact, she's been through A LOT of personal stuff (which I won't go into detail about) where I was the only person there to help her through it all...the only person she could talk to. We tell each other EVERYTHING. She was down on her luck...crappy job and all. I ended up going back to school in Spring 2003 and pushed her to go back as well to finish up so she could get a better job and give herself (and her son) a better life. She has gone back and now me and her even scheduled our classes together so we can commute over together. She graduates in May and brought up the idea a couple days ago about me and her moving in together and getting a place once we're both done and settled in jobs. She said it's because of me, how she wants a real positive influence/role model for her son, I'm the only guy she can trust (and trust with her child) and how I'm not an a$$hole. She even went as far as to put me on the permission list to pick up her child from school. One time she even mentioned I'm a "real man"...and she's been referring to me as "dear" a lot lately and will kinda brush up against/hit my arm once in awhile when something is funny (which she never used to before).
I think the world of this girl. I swear I see her in a way that nobody else does. She's been there for me when I needed it most, as I've been there for her (not too long ago I drove 40 miles to help her when she called me when her car broke down). She's a very special person to me, as well as her son. Her attitude, sense of humor, personality...all shines bright in my eyes.
She has no boyfriend right now. In fact, she just broke up with the one she had a couple months ago. She broke up with him because the guy was jealous of her child and he was really jealous of me (how she'd come to me to talk, to hang out with, etc..).
I know all about the "friends zone" thing, but not sure how it works with people who you've known since birth.
I was fine until a couple months ago these feelings started in...
I don't know what to do...do I tell her how I feel or just leave it in God's hands?