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Day 31. My relationship was very short (2 months), but it still sucked to get dumped since this girl and I really clicked (or so I thought). So, today I looked at the only thing left I had from her...an email with her phone number. I wrote the number down then deleted that email. I smiled as I thought about the fun times however brief. Then I recalled the last two weeks where she shut down slowly. How her normally open schedule became suddenly full. How pumpkin carving was suddenly a priority (that one made me laugh today). Then I shredded her phone number and that was that. In any case what I did to make it through 30 days was.. 1) Created a workout/activity plan for the month. Wrote it down and followed it no matter how crappy I felt. Hiking, surfing, gym, running, awesome parties, lame parties, whatever...just stayed busy. 2) Talked to friends and family about how I felt. 3) Wrote about how things felt whenever I was angry, sad, or just confused 4) Stopped trying to make excuses for her and accepted the fact she just wasn't into me 5) Just talked to random people while in the surf lineup, waiting in line, or at the gym. 6) Realized I did my best to make it work, that moving on was more important then staying in contact, and that refocusing my energy on me was a better use of time. Good luck to all you.

Day 29 of NC. One more day...

You quit on us for whatever reason...your douche ex or whatever is going on in your head. I was smart, funny, kind, honest, generous, and better looking then your lame ex...you gave that up for a ghost. Get better, pull your head out your ass, and realize that great guys don't come along every day. Good bye.