redreine

This is just one of those hope for the best, prepare for the worst situations.

Thanks, UK. I'm doing this no contact thing fully knowing that he will miss me and come back. In the meantime, I need to figure out what I need to do when he does come back.

This is my second day of no contact. I went out last night with some friends, and it was a blast! The day my ex broke up with me, I deleted him from myspace and facebook, but I've left him on aim and yahoo. The point of me doing that is so he can see my status changes, discussing how well I am doing. I have to admit, I've never been a Valentine's Day person, but last night was really hard for me when my friends and I were looking at Valentine's stuff, AND THEN. Right beside the Valentine's things were wedding things. GAH. That really hurt, considering my ex was my fiancee. I'm doing everything I can to keep busy. And I didn't cry all day yesterday. I am hoping upon hope that he comes to his senses sooner rather than later. Either way, I won't be getting back together with him (at least not right away), but the longer he waits the harder it will be when we do get back together.

Today is my first officialy day of NC. He broke up with me on February 8th, and today is February 10th. (I contacted on the 9th to tell him that I agree with the break-up, and to apologize for my part in the demise of the relationship, and for the way I reacted to the break-up, and to ask for an acceptance of my apology. He accepted.) Today, I have not cried all day. I've thought of him, but it hasn't hurt me as much. I did some jogging today, and have been actively trying to be happier, and I have been praying for strength. March 10th, we'll see what happens. I have to be honest though...if anyone knows my man, it's me. And he will definitely try to get back together with me before then. So I'll need some help being strong!