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I backed off from the new girl who was so much in to me. I knew I should not have told you about it. You told me to take it slow with her and I thought you were contemplating reconciliation. You flew to meet this guy all the way to a far away country and decided to get married, that too without giving me any hint! I know you don't awe me any explanation, but I would have preferred a text rather than notified by a common friend who came to know thru Facebook.(btw you never posted anything related to me in 5 years of our courtship on the Social netwirking sites!) You told me to slowdown with the new girl whereas you decided to marry him in a single date! How foolish of me that I shared everything even though we broke up last December. You kept me on the loop for the next 3 months, occasionally leading me on. Indirectly sabotaging my promising new relationship. I knew we were not meant be together. But I don't deserve such a treatment for being such a loyal understanding BF for 5 years who tolerated your giant mood swings. Where is the respect! I am not hurt that much as I was expecting this, you are at your unpredictable best. I am not happy for you either. What goes around, comes around..Better watch out.. As for me, the previous out of the blue break ups made me strong enough already to survive one final blow. Thanks for the good times! And see you on the other side..

I dont know... it just happened! I still love her! some part of me still wants her back! but not at the cost of my self esteem.. it has been 20 days.... okay.. I wil b on NC till 18th (her birthday)...I wont b tht cruel as she is...wil wish her 4 sure..nt sure text or call tho!

I broke NC again after 7 daz again!!! Now I am feeling so pathetic. I saw her online, could not resist. Just 4 liners tho. me: howz u? in ofice? Her: Yes. M gud and u? Me: Ok her: Hmmm Thatz it. After 15 mins I saw her going ofline. No bye..nothing

day 4... i broke NC, I had to call her b/c of sum urgent financial matter... NC restarts from today!!!

Day 4... I felt sad after I woke up...was in the bed for an extra hour just thinking about the past and the future... now I am feeling much better. But her thoughts are still doing the rounds. And wats worse is tht I need to call her today b/c of some financial issue... It is really urgent.... I am scared, her voice will make me weaker...I know she will talk in heartless manner..n I wl hav to start from the scratch again!!

yah i wl do tht... i hav no expectation to be honest...

itz my 3rd day of NC... 18th feb is her b-day...dunno wat to do !!!! saw her online yesterday.. i resisted my urge somehow!!!