crazyamor

Your words have made me realize that I've done the right thing. It has been really difficult to do it. Walking away from a "dream" is always hard. You know what it hurts in a way is that with this woman I always was truthful and sincere, not that I am an unsincere d***. I also have lots of respect for her. But life has to go on and I just have to realize that she was not for me and that I have read all the "SIGNS" the wrong way. Do you guys believe in "signs"? Thanks for your help

First of all, you are not old. Im 41 years old and I'm in my 3rd year of medical school, by the time I'll have my office and I'll be working as a "doctor" I'll be around 46-47. YOU ARE NEVER TOO OLD To STUDY. Think of it this way.... Sit on your favorite chair, put you feet on the desk or table, hands behind your head.... now relax and Close your eyes, think that now you are 30 years old and that you have gone to college and finish school, now you are a professional....feels great right? Now do the same, close your eyes and think you are 30 but no college....it does not feel that great right? The thing is you are gonna get old regardless of what you do, so you are gonna turn 30 whether you cry, dance, sleep or smoke pot everyday. So you might as well get a degree as you get older. Good luck.

My hope by writing these few lines is that some people will help me clear my mind about this woman. I met her almost year and a half ago. She has a boyfriend but sees him only every two months for a week because we both are studying medicine in a foreign country. She flirted with me a lot but always kept mentioning that she loves her boyfriend. To make a long story short a year later I told her about my feelings, she told me that she just wanted to be friends with me that she is not willing to lose her boyfriend of 8 years for a "MAYBE", that she is gonna marry him because he has asked her but "she wishes that he did something wrong so she would not have to marry him". After she told me that I tried to distance myself but she kept calling me (she even told me that i'm the perfect man") so we kept going out as friends, finally she got married, so this time I really tried to distance myself from her. She kept calling me many times over the phone, finally one day I tried to kiss her and she got upset and told me that it was her fault because a married woman should not be alone in an apartment with other man. Again I tried to distance myself but she kept looking for me. And at the end everytime we got together she would always be picking fights with me or telling me negative stuff about my person. Finally I stopped answering her phone calls. Now 3 months later everytime she sees me in school we talk only for a few seconds but she is mad at me, she does not tell me why and I dont ask her either. But WHY is she mad at me? She knows and not returning her calls because she is married, and also because I love her and since she is married there's no hope. Her roommate (girl) when she sees me is always playing stupid like she does not know anything and asks me to go out one of this nights for a night out (She has a boyfriend so is nothing romantic). So my question is why is she mad at me? vanity, selfisshness, love? Is she piissed at me because maybe she was using me and now she can't? If she does not feel anything for me why she kept looking for me evn after I tried to kiss her? I don't know what's going on. Please help me with this problem.